Chanda,
i'm here for you girl! I understand what you're going through and those feelings that just can't be expressed. I went through the same thing 6 days ago, even though I go through it everyday. I think it's great that you did something in memory of her. I'm sure it helped and hurt at the same time...I know everybody tells us it's going to be okay and it'll get easier, but it doesn't. And I want you to know that I know how you feel, and i'm here for you anytime of the day or night. I don't care if its 3 o clock in the morning, if you need me, you call me. Because I know grief doesn't go home after a certain time, it's always there. But know that even though tiffaney's not here physically, she's with you inside, where it counts. She watches over you everyday and helps you make decisions, she's been with you since the day she passed, and she will continue to be with you until you meet again. She'll be walking right beside you down the aisle when you get married, and when you have your babies, she'll be there. She loves you chanda, and that will never go away. I know I feel jenna at times, i'll be looking at her picture, or reading her letters, and I just feel her. It doesn't seem real, but it is. I know it's her. You need to allow tiffaney to come through so that you know she's okay. Don't be afraid of death, because we don't die, we just go to a better place. Our spirits are always here, we just can't see them. Write down how you feel when you get depressed, it'll make you feel so much better. I have a journal that I write in all the time expressing my feelings. This isn't the end chanda, in time the pain will heal, and all that you'll have left are the priceless memories of her, and all the good times. Her smile, her laugh, the scent of her perfume. All in time, those things will make you smile again. Just dont give up. I'm here for you though, and if you ever need someone to talk to, please don't hesitate. And I hope I can do the same with you...Because I know there are many times where I could use a good friend to talk to. Keep your head high okay? I'm gonna cry now...I love you girl!
*big hugs to everyone*
nessa