I read your web page, you seem to be alittle bit like me in the respect that you werent a threat to yourself or society, you just experienced alot of mental stuff.I never had a sexual encounter like yours, but what I did get and still do is just alot of sexual dreams, about no -one in particular. Sometimes its people I know and im not even sexually attracted to them(man or woman) which is embarrasssing when I have to talk to them the next day!.I was also put on zyprexia and yes I put on loads of weight, im only just beginning to get rid of it now, I stopped my meds last spring as I didnt feel I didnt need them anymore. Like you said they didnt really do much anyway.I just worked through my delusions and paranoia myself in a calm manner.Most of my delusions werent as extreme as yours, and mostly mine were nice happy delusions which are probably worse because you dont want to come back to the mundane things of this life!. I wouldnt say im totally cured , ive just learnt to deal with it. I still get wayward thoughts its just wether I choose to think about them or not.
I hope that you can over come these experiences, I just hung on to what we call real life and choose that as the life I wanted to live.My lifes good now, I go to college to do performing arts(acting, dancing ,singing),which will help with my confidence and self esteem, and im motivated(for the first time in my life!) to lose the weight I gained with kickboxing, swimming and dancing.As long as I keep myself relativley busy my mind doesnt have time to go mad on me, my mind monkey stays quiet so he cant start any monkey bussiness!!Lol