He's my best friend.. We were friends, then lovers... And everything fell apart, because I was undiagnosed bipolar. I flew off the deep end so often, and I tried to spare him by leaving for hours...And he was fine until one night he just... He didn't get it...And it all fell apart.

We became the best of friends in the past year since then...And recently he told me he loved me, and couldnt be without me...

But hes afraid of doing it up again, and I just... I dont know what to do. I've never loved someone more. Never. He took me to the e.R the night I tried to kill myself, found me passed out from overdose...Waited with me and held my hand... Comforted me when I was raped... And broke the kids elbow for touching me... He is incredible... When my dad used to hit me alot... He would kiss me until I smiled, and he would hold me and everything...

The nights I hurt myself, he washed off the blood, and cried for me...

And now... I feel like hes so far away... He keeps telling me how much he adores me... But im watchin him drink and smoke pot and hurt himself...And he wont let me help him.

Im in tears as I think about this...

What should I do? He means the world to me...