Hi. I am new to this forum. And I
would like to ask anybody out there what
could help me. I am a compulsive liar.
I tell lies to familiar faces and to
strangers. They are sometimes small
ones. Like whether or not I have done
one thing or another. Sometimes I make
up all kind of stories. Like telling a
colleague that I am pregnant, while I just
have a belly problem.
Now I have been in a relationship for over
seven years. This is not normal.
Considering my non stop lies I tell my
partner. I have destroied him. I know.
But I keep lying.
When I lie I do not feel bad. Only when
a lie is found out I feel shame, anger.
But it lasts for as long as the topic is
raised.
I do not seem to have any morality. I
think I have. Although when thinking
about it (which does not happen much) I
have a mountain of evidence that I have
not got a moral bone in my body.
I had a long fight with my partner
yesterday. So I am feeling bad about my
condition. Is this curable? Or should
I leave the poor thing?
And if I do so, how can I prevent myself
from bonding and hurting other people?
The way I am feeling now about who I
am...I would just like to be dead.
What is the use of being the way I am? I
only hurt people. I am bad!!!!
The worst of all (although very selfishly
said) I hurt myself too.
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 11-05-05 18:38pm
Hi pitty! Just wanted to let you know
that you can get help for this. Talk to
your Dr., go to mental health, there is
nothing to be ashamed of we all need help
sometime in our lives, as the song says, "
the truth well set you free."
good luck to you and keep us posted on how
you are doing.
