Hi everyone,
i'm writing because I really need some help. This summer I taught a summer school class in which I met an amazing man who i'll call james. James and I got along really well all summer. He taught another class. We'd talk a lot during the children's recess and soon I found myself imagining being with him. Soon I found out he was married with two boys. Immediately I stopped my flirting and touching. But, the more time I spent around him, the more I wanted to know him. Nothing happened all summer, but the last day of class we hugged goodbye, and neither of us could let go. I started to cry and he couldn't talk, for fear of crying himself. He left that day to go down south (we live in wi), and on his way back up (he lives about an hour north of me) he stopped by to say hello. It had only been a week and I was a mess. I missed him so much. We did nothing that night, but hugged and talked for many hours. From there we talked almost every night for a month, before his wife found a text message that I had sent to him. He called to say that his wife had threatened to take his kids and leave, so we stopped talking for about a month or so. After a month, though, he called me on my birthday to say hello. About a week later I went to visit him and we kissed. It was only once, but it was amazing. We've since then talked almost every night from 8 pm until midnight (his wife works nights in a hospital). We talk after work, while we're driving, basically whenever we can. He's even called me while being over at his father-in-law's house watching baseball after the father had gone to bed. I love him very much, and one week ago we made love. He had a convention for work and I met him at the hotel and we made love all night. I can't describe the feeling I get when i'm around him, or talking about him... He's amazing in every aspect. He wants to leave his wife, he's not in love with her (nor has he been for many years), but he's not sure how to handle it with his boys. He loves his boys very much.

I don't know what i'm looking for, i'm just trying to sort everything out in my mind. Someone help!
J