Please Help...i'm On the Verge of Suicide Posted: 10-27-05 11:01am
Hi, if you have read any of my other posts
than you would know that approxamately 2
1/2 months ago maybe a little more than
that..I had a miscarriage. I was
approximately 4 months or a lil more
along. I never went to a doctor to
confirm that everything was removed or not
because I couldn't go to a doctor for
several reasons. I have been extremely
depressed and it doesn't seem like it is
going to go away. I love my fiancee with
all of my heart and he is there fore me
24/7, but this pain will not go away and I
donno why. I am to the point where I have
considered how i'll end the pain through
suicide. I can't take it anymore, and
since the pregnancy was a secret I cant
talk about it to anyone and it's killing
me in side. I feel unfit or something...I
donno..I'm sorry if this sounds stupid I
just am so freaked out right now. This
has nothing to do with my fiancee he is an
amazing man and is there for me in every
single situation and he has been here to
comfort me. I just need advice from a
female persepective because I haven't been
able to get any from friends b/c the
pregnancy was secret. I think that
talking about it to someone may help me
because not talking about it is driving me
mad thanks for your help
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rdy4one
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Posted: 10-27-05 11:51am
Why sweetie, thats all I want to ask you
is why? I understand the pain of you
losing your baby but you still have your
life and thats a blessing. Be thankful
that you are able to wake every morning,
eat, do for yourself. I know your
problem seems big and its the only problem
in the world but trust me it's not.
There is always someone out there with
problems bigger then yours. Just think
if you weren't ever able to conceive,
there are women in this forum who would
like to know the feeling of being
pregnant, and guess what you experienced
that at least. True your baby did not
make and i'm sorry for that but you are
not dead, try again and i'm sure you will
be successful. Suicide????? Do you know
how precious life is, you have a fiance
that is there for you 24/7 some of us
don't have that, we don't have anyone but
you have to be strong and make through.
Things will get greater later, behind
every dark cloud there is sunshine. Keep
you head up and no suicide is not the
answer, it will only hurt more people in
the end. When you feel the strength then
just concentrate on trying again.
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mongirl
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Joined: 10 Oct 2005 Posts: 93 Location: Michigan
Posted: 10-27-05 12:01pm
I can understand that you feel the way you
do. Alot of women feel depressed and have
a sense of loss after a miscarriage which
is very difficult. But if you have not
been to the doctor I think you should do
so soon because you physical health and
emotional health is at risk. Its a
horrible thing to go through without
talking about how you feel maybe you
should see a counsler to talk to if you
cant talk to your family or friends. But
the most important thing to know is that
taking your own life is not the anwser!
You can get through it without that. Hang
in there.
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mia7
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Joined: 09 Sep 2005 Posts: 378
Posted: 10-27-05 12:02pm
Please try your hardest to work up the
courage to see your doctor. I know this
is tough for you, but you have to try and
make it through. Suicide is not the
answer. Think about your fiancee. I am
sure he loves you very much. He just lost
his child, don't let him lose you too.
With time and help, you can get through
this. Go see your doctor, tell your
doctor what happened, make sure that you
ask if they know of somewhere that you can
go to get help. Make sure you don't get
an infection.
Life is precious and you are lucky to be
here. Although it's tough for you right
now and it's hard to deal with something
like this. You have to make it through.
Don't ever give up.
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Pupka
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Joined: 27 Oct 2005 Posts: 5 Location: KS
Posted: 10-27-05 22:00pm
Probably it's none of my business, but why
your pregnancy was a secret?? Or did you
wanna do a surprise for your fiancee?
Anyway, he is the only person you should
talk with about everything. Whatever's
happenning to you, he must know about it
first, not the forum. He is the one who
will understand and support you in
difficult minute... Suicide is a nonsence
thing... It's teens' problem. I hope
you're not a teen.
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britney0581
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Joined: 17 Sep 2005 Posts: 31 Location: n/a
I Have Posted: 10-28-05 10:48am
I have talked to him about it....And he is
very supportive and is there for me. But
I need to talk to someone who has been
through this before so I know what to
expect. I need someone to tell me what is
happening with me, and since my fiancee is
a man (of course), he doesn't know about
the reactions of the female body as
someone who is a woman and who has had a
miscarriage or pregnancy would. Im sorry
if my problem is mediocre, but it is still
a problem. Ya, I know that suicide is a
stupid way to do something, and I don't
want to hurt him, that is why I haven't
done it. But I just feel like the pain
isn't going to go away, and it hurts so
much every day. Sorry again if this
sounds stupid.. I can't help feeling this
way. Thanks
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 10-28-05 11:33am
Ok not to worry you even more but if you
were 4 months along, it is extremelly important that you
go to a doc to make sure everything came
out. If not, it can cause major health
probs to you and you may have major probs
trying to conceive again.
I had 2 miscarriages when I was younger
and with the 2nd one I was 3 months along
and had to have a d&c to remove the
extra tissue.
It is hard to get over but you will. Try
to find a support group in your area, they
are annonymous so no need to worry about
someone going and saying soemthing,.
Good luck.
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sashalovesjosh
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Joined: 28 Oct 2005 Posts: 2 Location: washington
to Britney Posted: 10-28-05 14:38pm
Britney my name is sasha. And first off I
would like to say you are a very strong
person to ask to speak with someone to
help you cope with this. I am sorry to
hear for your loss it is a very hard thing
to go through. And I can only imagine the
emotional heart ache you have for that.
But take in consideration sweetie that you
have your whole life to live and that god
works in very mysterious ways. I see that
you have a fiance and it sounds like you
are deeply in love and that he makes you
feel so good. Think of all the good
things you have . It will get better each
day, it may take some time but it will.
Think of in the future what you and your
fiance will have.. A house.. A family.
It will happen. Be patient and pray to
god to remove your heart ache, he will see
you through...
I will pray for you as well.
May god bless you,
sasha
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ocean_luver
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Joined: 28 Oct 2005 Posts: 3 Location: California baby!
:( Posted: 10-28-05 16:51pm
Oh hun, I am so sorry for your loss. I
can't imagine what that feels like to lose
a child. I do know however what it is
like to feel
hopeless...Heartbroken....Suicidal.
It's like your whole world has been
shattered and you feel like you will never
be able to put back together the peices.
It's only understandable and ok that you
feel this way. You probably will for a
while and that is ok too. It will get
better little by little. And you can
help that process by taking care of
yourself...By being understanding of
yourself...By being good to yourself.
Talk to someone or look into support
groups. Sometimes it helps to just talk
about it and you may need to talk about it
for a while.
And remember: it's not your fault. These
things happen. And like I said, be
understanding of yourself. Talk to
yourself like you would a best friend.
Would you think and tell your best friend
that she must be defective? Well you
aren't either.
So curl up on the couch with some tea and
light some candles and make that dr's
appointment....For your future baby, your
fiance and you.
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zetta2005
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Joined: 28 Oct 2005 Posts: 6 Location: Detroit
Pleeezzee Reeaadd Posted: 10-28-05 20:28pm
Hey many name is rosezetta, and I have
been on the verge of killing my self also.
But my then boifriend, now fiance tells
me that everything is going to work out.
I have had three miscarriages and now I
think im pregant again. This time i'm not
having the symptoms that I used to have.
My life too has also been very horible,
since I met brian evrything been trying to
go good. Not physically but mentally.
Girl all I have to say is pick ya head up
and let your fiance comfort you, that caca
feels good as hell. There is always
another day. Tonight just get in the tub
and drink a lot of water. Me as a message
therapist is telling you to just beleive
in life its self. If you want to figure
out my past email me>
