Hello sanjana,
this is sad story and I can understand how you feel. It seems to me that your low self-esteem may have come to the surface after you experience that you bf cheated on you.
Sometimes the depression may have a physiological basis and I would like you to read:
what is hypoglycemia?
but I really feel that your low self-esteem may be at the bottom of your problems and I certainly agree with you that we need to do something about it.
We have a self-help program, free of charge, at our web site, under the name of psychotherapy
this program looks at the self-image and how we develop a negative self-image. Please study transactional analysis (ta). This is long complicated word for a simple idea.
It says that the mind can be divided into the parent, adult and child. When we communicate to other people we seem to be hopping from one ego to the next.
The most troublesome ego is the inner parent within us. It is a moral ego that sits in judgment all the time. When you hear people talking who sit in their inner parent ego, you hear such things as good, bad, right, wrong, you should, you mustn’t and so on and on.
The adult in us is the rational ego that knows what is or is not true. When we have a low self-esteem it is said that the parent ego in us seem to be in control. It seems to be the dominant ego, and when we want to get rid of negative ideas about ourselves we need to make the adult the dominant ego.
The parent ego can also be considered a fairly primitive part of the mind, that acts more like an animal than a rational being. Thus if we want to retrain the parent in us, we need to retrain it like we retrain a doggie that is misbehaving.
The point I want to get across is that if you study our psychotherapy course at the rate of one chapter a week and mentally practise as is suggested, you will find that in about eight weeks time you start to feel different about yourself.
The course includes a self-assertiveness training program that teaches you how to handle criticisms, not only from other people, but more importantly from within yourself. It has also a counselling training program and values clarification course. The latter will help to define what you want out of life and assess whether you are in fact compatible with other people.
good luck
jur
jurriaan plesman, ba (psych) post grad dip clin nutr
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