My name is birdie and I am 13 years old. I have been going through spells and times where I am so depressed and down that my friends are getting concerned. I try to keep away from my family so that they wont notice. Ive had a lot of problems and things that stress me out, but ive been dealing with these same kinds of things for years. I should be used to it, but it still hurts me. I scared myself the other day. I was really out of it... So bad I felt as if I were walking through nothingness... And I cut myself. Since then its been happening uncontrollably. My family is clueless. I am usually such a "sweet kid" that they dont think anything serious is wrong. I cant find it in me to tell them somethings wrong and I feel I need some sort of help. I have a really good friend who's been helping me a lot, but she doesnt know about the cutting. Im afraid to tell her. What can I do about my mess ive made?