Alright, this is a horabile story which I do not like talking to any one about but this might be able to help some people
i lost my virginty at the age of 12. I was terrfied because it was more of an intercouse that was not aproved by me. So call it rape. I wanted to lock myself in a room. I finnaly got over it. But it seemd that after that incodent just many things went wrong. Family, freinds, ect.
Well after that incodent, I leanred to %$#% what any guy tells you. I am going to stand up for my self. Well, I was at the age of 13, and I was with some freinds. We went to a party and hear is what happend:
the ones that we were parting wiht, thought that they where going to have us stay there and spend the night without us knowing. Just turn down our questions when we ask to take us home. My freind was drinking and living it up, while me and another friend of mine stayed without anything to drink. My other freind then began to drink so I was the only smart one. I did not know who these people where that I was drinking and partying with, I just came with my freinds so I thougth to be marture enought and stand out and say no to the drinks and drugs.
They called me a "health forum", called me every name in the book because I wasnt "partying" and having fun as they wished I was. Well, they had nothing there but alochol. But partying for over 9 hrs, you get a little thirstdy so I asked for soimething ot drink. Despert for something to drink, feeling like dehydration, I took anything. They came out with a drink that they had proed for me, while seing the bottle of " cran berry juice" in their hands. I thought alright I am going to take a couple sips thats it. I felt fine, drink tasted like regular cran bery juice. No mixture!.
Hrs passed, and we still didnt have a ride home. We were all getting scared because we were far from home.
Finnaly a war broke on with just us three girls, and a group of guys. We thretende to walk home, if they wouldn take us home, and when we did get home, we would have them delt wiht. Well, they gave in, and took us back home.
Getting to my freinds house, I felt a lil whoosy. They asked me, if I drank, but I said no. I felt that something was wrong but I didnt know.
Came home, to find two other guys at the house as well. Guys that we knew. One guy was trying to " get with me", slapping my ass, and trying to get at me. I truned him down and was feeling to go to sleep. I asked for him to leave the room, but it was his cousin that was still in the room with us. I didnr know how dirty he was( he was more of a stranger to me) and thought, alright he is just on the computer, he will get out when he is done and any ways, my freinds moms home now so she will check up on us. I then changed my close( dumb of me, I wrote a pair of boxers to get comfrotable and slept on the bed with my two fiends and fell asleep).
I awoke with my freind teling me " fix your boxers" . I then awoke to see that my boxers and under where were off compeltly. I figured, that my freind was just playing a joke on me. She told me no that she just woke up right now and she see me liek that, without anything covering me.
I didnt think much about it, I fixed my boxers and that was it. I wnet to the restroom and came back in the room as they both were awake teling me that they think that " the guy that was trying to be with me" did soemthing to me while I was sleeping. Funnny thing is, I didnt feel any thing when I fell asleep. The last thing I rembered was changing my clothes and telling him to get out of the room. They asked me if I feel diff. I answerd bluntly. No!
They scared me half to death. One of the girls( the one that found me like that) was teling me that he( the one that was trying to get with me) is dirty liek that and he will do something to me. I didnt take anything by it. I was still a little girl, by all menas, what am I going to think? I wanted to put all the negatiivey away. Even thought, having a feeling, that the ones that we were partying wiht, might of druged me out, thinking that they could do something to me, while staying the night as they palned out for us
a month later, I was missing my period. I was scared. I am a little girl and posably pregnant. For three months I did not recireve my perid( maybe it was becuse I had just started my period at the age of 12) I was terrfied. My friend asked me to take a preg tests but I was scared too.
My family found out about this incoendnt that happend to me. I seen a gyno, had every test ran on me, came back eerything was arlight. I was thankful. The one that I did have sex with, I know for sure, he was clean. This was about maybe 8 months after that incodned with him. And three months after this second one.
About three months later, I noticed a spot on my down town area. I do shave, so I thought that it could just be an iingorwn hair.( it was on the insdie of my lips). But strange thing is, it did not hurt. I twas just a bump. I asked a coupole of people, and they said that they did not know. As the days go on, it looked more o fa little tiny wart that just would not go away. I tryed playing with it to see if it woudl pop but nothing.
Already scared, I felt to go to the Dr. Hadnt made an appt, one morning woek up to find, 7 of these little " warts" I was just in tears!
I finnaly just gave on and went to the nearest clinic.
They spotted this type of spott quickly. He had told me, after the resuls came back, that I just had these warts on the " outside " I had no spotting what so ever on the insdie of my body. I was thankfull to know that, to know that the visible ones that I see, where the only ones. He gave me some oinment to put on before I got to sleep, and when awake, wash it off. They started to disapear at the instant monment of puting this cremee on.
Now, I am clean of everything! I make sure that I watch who ever I am with, and whatever ia m doing to watch myself carefully! You can not trust any one and I just felt to share my sotry to tell girls, careles or not, that something of this can happen to you, but as for me, I was the lucky one that didnt have any purment damage!
