im 19 and have a 5 month old son right now.
i got pregnant at 18 unplanned, my boyfriend stayed with me and supports me alot, but still at 19 now i feel like im not doing things that are right..
When my son was born he was colic, meaning he cried non stop. i had a really bad first birthing experience and a hard time healing, and would be up all night long trying to get a crying baby to well, not cry!
What i have learned, is that you can never be 100% prepared when you have a baby because there's always going to be a fork in the road turning things up.
its a hard thing to do. my boyfriend and i right now are struggling with bills being paid, im up pretty much 20hours a day or longer taking care of our son, some of my friends dont talk to me anymore-so it goes to show they weren't much of friends anyways- i dont get to go and see my best friend when i want to, i cant just leave when i feel like it, im tied down. and although i love my son to pieces, and would not trade the way things are for a second, i still do wish i could just be a regular 19year old for once.
Enjoy your youth, because once its gone it is gone forever. Enjoy college life with your boyfriend, enjoy your relationship with your boyfriend.
my boyfriend and i we love each other, but inbetween caring for our son we dont get as much alone time as we used to we cant snuggle on the couch or go out when we please for a romantic evening because there's a baby in the picture now.
Why not get married first?
Or get a pet with your boyfriend, a dog or a cat. The responsibility of a baby is similar to one of a pet because if you dont feed that pet, they could starve, if you dont interact and play with that pet they start feeling neglected.
Enjoy the freedom you have right now, enjoy being young with your boyfriend because everything changes when you have a baby.
Its so much more rewarding when you wait for such a big thing like this.
if you need to tlak, you can PM me anytime.
