Yikes. There is an eating disorder conference being run by the treatment centre I attend this friday, and is naturally, in my locality. I am going along to it. It is so scary though. I made a collage for it on sunday (my first one ever), and some of my photos are being portrayed on a slide show, and made a collage of sorts (more like a big poster though) of some of my photos for it last night. It is so scary, because of the fact, that in essence, I am putting myself out there. My ed is one aspect of myself that I have kept pretty much to myself over the years - so it really feels as if i'm putting myself out there - despite the fact that no one will necessarily know that they are mine. It's strange though. I do want to participate and contribute on some level, and am finding it challenging - most likely due to the secretive nature of ed's, especially in light of the fact that I always managed to keep it from my family. I also know that this is an important step for me to take, especially if I want to work in the ed field - my dream for the past number of years (and still is) is to some day work in the clinic I currently attend - hence, if I can things sorted with the accreditation organisation, I can start to cut down on my sessions.

Sorry for venting...