I am so deeply in love it is crazy I want to marry this person be with them forever share pain and happiness and have children. This is just crazy I didn't know I could even want these things the problem is I can't be with them long story so here I am on the opposite side of the world so incredibly alone I feel like life is too hard. At the moment I just want to vomit for hours and beat myself out or maybe just exerxcise until I passout or starve. I am so scared I have been depressed for so long I have worked hard at fighting my eating disorder currently I haven't thrown up in 20 days and before I hadn't thorwn up in 2 weeks I just want something to change I feel liek the only person who is aone and has the world against her though I know it isn't true. But why can't I just have my love I would do anything.
I am really sorry to hear about your friend. I am here of you wanna talk I am bulimic to. It is a good thing you didn't purge for 20 days I wouldn't be able to do it but if it makes you feel better I am here I can talk to you I know how you feel (with being bulimic). I know how I felt whe I came on here and just wanted to talk to someon anyone who would listen and then I found a couple people that I could easily talk to you know. It did make me feel a little bit better about whatever had me upset or anything
inezrina...Hang in there! Love comes from a lot of different places than just romance. If you want to share the story you're welcome. Don't know if this will help you at all but I loved someone and was given false hope over and over again. I just never felt good enough and tried changing myself the whole time. This had been going on for about 8 years and I just couldn't forget about him. It hurt so much to see him with his girlfriend. To distance yourself from the person definitely helps - when I think about it soberly I know that he is not good for me and most of the critique and selfloathing I have now in myself, comes from him and his family (whom I still love very much). Some of the stuff I learned from them is very valueable and I now know that I gave my power away. It is for the better to not be with that person! You must seek positives and stick to it...remind yourself of it constantly. I can help you with that if you like. I also have a lot of stuff I need to share and get help with.
Good luck inezrina! You will get through this! Love