Joined: 25 Aug 2003 Posts: 1762 Location: Venice, Florida
I Was Decided..... Posted: 12-04-03 16:22pm
Hey guys. Remember when I couldn't decide
whether I wanted dewitt or
camerin? Well, I finally decided on
dewitt since he has cleaned up his act so
much and I really think josh deserves to
have his real father in his life.
So I was all set and decided and camerin
decides to give me this note, in response
to one I gave him months ago saying why I
loved him so much. I treally made me cry,
I just wish he would stop this. Oh well.
I'm going to have to say it's too late.
He had his chance, and as much as I still
love him i'm just going to have to learn
to get over it. Because I love dewitt
more. This is the letter he wrote....It
really made me cry knowing that he feels
that way, but I just can't put myself
through that again...Ya know? Any input
or advice on what you think I should do
about this would be much appreciated.
Chrissy,
sorry I haven't talked to you lately.
I've just been.... I dont know. It's
just hard to talk to you sometimes. I
heard you're mad at me again. Sorry....I
didn't mean to make you cry. It may be
hard to believe but I never would want to
make you cry. That's why that stupid
little in-breed never really read that
letter. You can thank sean for that.
He's the one who stopped her. Don't worry
sean didn't either. The reason it's hard
to talk to you is because I love you. I
don't know why it's so hard to say. It
never was before. I guess I was just
afraid too. Though I dont care anymore.
I love you more than anything in the
world. More than life itself. Even
though my life I wish was over. I can't
stand not being able to see you every day,
not being able to hear your voice or kiss
your soft lips, see your beautiful eyes or
touch your soft skin. But not being able
to hold you kills me the most. And
reading all those reasons why you love me,
I can think of a billion more why I love
you...
I could really use some help on dealing
with this situation......
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 12-05-03 09:51am
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Mesmerizeu15
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Aug 2003 Posts: 2729 Location: Pittsburgh,PA
Posted: 12-05-03 10:23am
Personally I think that you should have
given yourself more time than you did,
because then you wouldnt be making bad
mistakes like you obviously are. I think
that in each relationship that you learn a
lesson and the lesson should be that right
now you need to take time out for you and
your son. Men can wait, you can still
date them and stuff but what is best for
you... Date not just one person but see
what it is all about!!
I hope to hear you soon!!
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Mesmerizeu15
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Aug 2003 Posts: 2729 Location: Pittsburgh,PA
Posted: 12-05-03 10:32am
Personally I think that you should have
given yourself more time than you did,
because then you wouldnt be making bad
mistakes like you obviously are. I think
that in each relationship that you learn a
lesson and the lesson should be that right
now you need to take time out for you and
your son. Men can wait, you can still
date them and stuff but what is best for
you... Date not just one person but see
what it is all about!!
I hope to hear you soon!!
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KissyBai912
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2003 Posts: 1762 Location: Venice, Florida
Posted: 12-05-03 17:04pm
I don't feel like I am making a bad
mistake. I am always going to love
camerin but I just can't take what he's
put me through. That was part of the
reason I decided on dewitt. I still don't
want camerin. He hurt me really
bad....And I hurt him.....I just don't
think we could trust each other. And I
don't want anything as serious as what
he's asking for right now. Besides, how
do I know he wouldn't totally ignore josh
once he got here? I just don't think he's
a good choice for me anymore. I'm going
to focus on getting to know dewitt better.
Lol jen I told him he was acting
obsessive and he said I know, I just
wanted to be sure you knew I loved you.
But i'm not looking for those words right
now. Seems like too many guys are sayin
em. Lol. Well ill ttyl. Bye 4 now.
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Darling
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Sep 2003 Posts: 875
Posted: 12-05-03 18:53pm
You talk about both of them as if they
were objects and you just can't choose
which one you want. That's not fair to
you or either one of them. It's like your
toying with their emotions. How about
choosing neither of them and staying
single for awhile and concentrating on
having a healthy baby!!!!!!!
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LiDdLe_MoMmY_704
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 27 Location: Washington, D.C
Posted: 12-05-03 20:47pm
I think that you made a good decision
about whether or not to go back to a
relationship that would probably fail. A
relationship is based on trust and if you
dont think you will have that with camren
then give dewit a chance, his letter
sounds sincere and it could be worth your
time! But right now make sure u dont
spend too ((caps)) much time with him.
You need to concentrate on having a
healthy baby!! By the way I forgot what
your decision is, are you going to keep
him/her?? Well, good luck hun!!
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KissyBai912
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2003 Posts: 1762 Location: Venice, Florida
Posted: 12-06-03 13:58pm
Yes I am keeping him. Btw, that letter
was from camerin. Not dewitt. Darling, I
don't mean tot alk about them like they
are objects, I already made my decision to
stick with dewitt. I just need some
support in that decision. Because walking
away from camerin is the hardest thing
i've ever had to do. He was a lot of
firsts for me. And I just need help
getting over him. That's why I don't want
anything serious with dewitt. I just need
time to chill and think. I just feel in
my heart he's the best choice because not
only is he josh's daddy, but we don't have
the mis-trust camerin and I have. We also
talk about things camerin and I could
never talk about, like religeon. But
camerin was here th other night and we had
a talk, i'm not sure how well he took
because I haven't spoken with him since.
He's grounded so I can't call and see how
he's doing. I just wish there was a way
we could be friends or something, but
after what we had, I think it just might
be too akward. I would still love to try.
Anyone got any advice on going from
relationship to just friends?
