Awwww...Hmmmm I kinda kno what your talkin about...Tho im only 17...But I have an eatin disorder since I was about 7th grade...And still kinda struggle with it...I have recently gotten diagnosed with depression and I kinda understand what u are going thru...But yet im still young...But im here to talk to you about anything even tho u r like a mom to me :)...Which is a good thing rite?...Feel better and maybe go to the doct agn maybe a psychiatrist.....Talk your feelings out maybe that will work who knows try anything...Dont let you kids down

I am really surprised to note this statement of yours as being diagnoised. Are you comfortably placed with your family?Having children around and a loving husband that you claim to love a lot nothing could be better.
Get into the habit of finding something good in anything bad that comes in life and make sure your focus stays on that.Getting into the happiness mode has to be made a habit and can not be left to destiny.
God has made you and provided you with a large and affectionate family.
Your eating disorder may be in disguise an digestive tract system defect of long.
Try to get into better eating habits and regular bowel movements.Indian gooseberry known by many other names is a very useful herb which is very helpful in building a healthy digestive system.
Happiness does not grow on trees .Build good habits and do justice first to your own self and then to your family.
All the best

5 children? Wow what a big family. Sounds wonderful to be blessed with so many. I'm only 17 at the moment, but I went through some sort of depression and still do. I think that our bodies are just not built for things that life throws at us. We are immune to some solutions but one in definite solves it; you yourself can change it. You sound like a strong person, even though you have low self esteem as you say. We all do, my friend. Even the most well-loved woman in this world must look at herself in the mirror and find something that she feels is just not right. But to have 5 beautiful children, you must be so proud; and them of you. You live in a happy environment; and your very lucky. My neighbourhood at the moment isn't as happy as I would like it to be; but there you go!

I hope that you will be ok and wake up with a smile on your face, knowing that all around you is positive energy and warmth.

it sounds to me like you need to visit your doctor and have him switch your anti depressant to something else. It doesn't sound like the one your on is working very well for you. You shouldn't be having these type of feelings if the meds were working properly. Talk to him/her about and see if they can switch you to something else. Ask them about lexipro (sp?). That one seems to be a very good one.

Hello.
I didn't experience post partum depression, but I suffer from anxiety and depression. I actually just recently began to feel much better. I have to say it is all god.
Anyway, I really find it sad that your self esteem and image of yourself are low. Look yourself in the mirror and remind yourself each and every time that god created you in his own image and the way you are is because he created you that way. We may not understand certain things, but he knows what he wants from you and what he wanted you to look and be like. I know this is a tough concept, but you are here for now and I think it is important that you learn to love you. When you look at yourself, pick one thing each time that makes you even half smile! We all have complaints about our bodies, but they are ours and only ours so learn to thank god for your freckles or big butt or big nose or pointy chin. Not saying you have any of those, but my point is, we all have different features and not one person in the entire world is just like you. That is amazing.
Start a daily journal. Write in everyday and at the end of every year, burn it. Say goodbye to the past and begin a new one. It might be fun to read it once the year is up before you burn it to see the changes you have undergone. You may surprise yourself!
You are the result of all the previous pictures you have painted of yourself and you can always paint new ones!-wayne dyer
learn to ask god in prayer to open your heart and eyes to finding the blessings in each day even if the day was a complete ball of stress!!!
Good luck and god bless