Jen,
thanks for your support, it means a lot coming from somebody who's been through it before. It's been so hard, I can't even imagine how i'm ever going to get over it. I mean how can I just forget about the plans that we had made, the promises that we swore by to eachother? We promised to be eachother's bride's maids at eachothers weddings, godmothers to our babies, how can I just forget that? I've always told my mom that when I have my little girl, i'm going to name her gianna marie, because 1. Its a strong italian name and 2. Ive always loved it because its different. But i've decided to change that and name my daughter after her in rememberance. I'm not telling anybody until after she's born though because it's going to be a really hard, yet special thing at the same time. Even though she's passed, it's like her spirit will be lived through a new life. I don't know, I don't want her to be forgotten ya know? There's this song by good charlotte called "hold on" and I can't help but cry everytime I listen to it, because I dont want to hold on any longer... But to everybody, thank you, for all of the incredible support you've all given me...I can't even begin to express my appreciation.
Vanessa