I just knew that i'm a bipolar a while ago. I've got social anxiety disorder too; n sum symptoms of schzophrenia. I'm soo paranoid these days, I feel emotionally numb and am not writing or talkin to anyone about my emotions, am always denying that anything is wrong. "i'm fine" what I think ur fiance is bipolar n shes in a paranoid state. Coz when she starts thinking you dont love her she is paranoid. I currently automatically think everybody hates me n judges me wrong n I hate everybody these days.If you really love her be patient n give her the support she needs.And when shes feeling good. Keep up the support becoz when she starts numbing her feelings she gets paranoid. These days am numbed sooo numbed. Im numbing my true real feelings n am like "whatever you want." so just make her feel good about herself n always talk to her about how she feels. When she says I need to be alone let her be coz we bipolars isolate ourselves sometimes.. "just like I do"..
There are diff. Episodes, depends on the person. Each one's bipolar is different. Mine for example, I get all the episodes sometimes in one week. N other times I may get manic for a long while n feel soooooooooooooooooo good. N other times I get hypomanic.. That is the best episode. U got nooo negative feelings at all. U think positive.
These are the episodes:
(hypomanic episode)--
"at first when i'm high, it's tremendous…ideas are fast…like shooting stars you follow until brighter ones appear…all shyness disappears, the right words and gestures are suddenly there…uninteresting people, things, become intensely interesting. Sensuality is pervasive; the desire to seduce and be seduced is irresistible. Your marrow is infused with unbelievable feelings of ease, power, well-being, omnipotence, euphoria…you can do anything…but, somewhere this changes."
(manic episode)--
"the fast ideas become too fast and there are far too many…overwhelming confusion replaces clarity…you stop keeping up with it—memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened…everything is now against the grain…you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped."
(major depressive episode)--
"i doubt completely my ability to do anything well. It seems as though my mind has slowed down and burned out to the point of being virtually useless. [i am] haunt[ed]…with the total, the desperate hopelessness of it all…others say, 'it's only temporary, it will pass, you will get over it.' but of course they haven't any idea of how I feel, although they are certain they do. If I can't feel, move, think, or care, then what on earth is the point?"
mixed episode--
symptoms of both a manic and major depressive episodes
bipolar I disorder--
characterized by the occurrence of one or more manic episodes or mixed episodes. Often individuals have also had one or more major depressive episodes.
Bipolar ii disorder--
characterized by the occurrence of one or more major depressive episodes accompanied by at least one hypomanic episode.
Cyclothymic disorder--
a chronic fluctuating mood disturbance involving numerous periods of hypomanic symptoms and numerous periods of depressive symptoms.
Rapid cycling--
defined as having 4 or more manic, mixed, hypomanic, or depressive episodes in any
12-month period. Episodes are marked by either a period of partial or full remission for at least 2 months or a switch to an episode of opposite polarity.
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thnx I feel a bit connected to myself n feelings now for talkin about it.. Anyways, peace n good luck :wink:
