I am not the only one who has dealt with what I had to go through.

It is over, yet sometimes I am still scared, I have a physical scar
and emotional wounds will heal in time

i really don't understand why there are so many men who are abusive, ( I know women are too) I do not get the dynamics of all of that.

I do not want to be alone for the rest of my life, and never have sex again, god, I sure hope not, :) lol
yet how do I date again, how can I ever trust again?

My ex did not show me his other side until a year into it
it was not too good to be true, it was not perfect, as nothing is
i was grounded, not into that fairy tale romance
yet somehow I was blindsided, and wow, I thought he was a nice guy
i did not know he had a jekel, mr,hyde personality

man, I wish I could rewind the hands of time
this was the worst experience of my life, I hope I can recover without being bitter and jaded.