My Hubby Just Left For Iraq Today... Posted: 10-01-05 19:22pm
I just sed goodbye to my hubby today at
around 12pm today.. And his flight for
iraq isnt sposd to leave till 9 tonite..
But I dont kno if it did.. Im having a
really hard time with this rite now.. I
think im about to go to the hospital cuz I
cant do this.. I cant go thru this...
I think im having a nervous breakdown..
Im here all alone and I dont kno anyone...
I dont have anyone here to talk to or
anything.. I dont kno wut the hell im
sposed to do.. I cant be with out him..
Ireally cant.. I feel like id rather die
then be with out him.. I kno that sounds
bad.. But thats how I feel rite now..
I dont even kno wut the hell im writing in
here for about all this.. But I need to
talk to him now.. And he cant go.. If
he goes, my life will be over.. Icant
handle this at all.. Im not made out for
this kinda caca.. I dont kno wut the
hell to do.. Ive been trying to call the
company to see if they left yet.. But
they dont kno.. And I just really need
to talk to him.. He cant go again.. I
cant go thru this caca again.. Ive been
thru it in 2003 and that was hard... But
this time its even harder... Its too
much for me.. I cant be away from him..
I need him rite now.. I dont kno wut to
do.. Sorry for writing all this caca..
I just had to write it somewhere.. Im
gonna get off here and try to get ahold of
him some more.. I cant let him go.. I
cant go thru this.. It hurts so doing it
bad.. Its killing me.. I seriously
cant do this :(
:cry:
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annaf2001
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Oct 2005 Posts: 41 Location: Oklahoma
Re: My Hubby Just Left For Iraq Today... Posted: 10-03-05 11:19am
I am sorry that you are having to go
through this, you are not alone. I went
through this last year, it wasn't the
first time he has left me but it was the
longest, a little over a year long. I
think that was the longest year of my
life. I would never wish that kind of
pain on anyone, not even my worst enemy.
I think I am emotionally scarred because
of it. You need someone you can talk to,
and confide in. My best friend and I
went through this at the same time. I
was having panic attacks, it was scary.
But I was strong and got through it and
now I am even stronger because of it.
You can email me if you don't have anyone
else you know that can relate. I would
like to be of help to you since I have
been through this too and know how hard it
can be.
Annal
eecrank@yahoo.Com
babysteph
wrote:
i just sed goodbye to my
hubby today at around 12pm today.. And
his flight for iraq isnt sposd to leave
till 9 tonite.. But I dont kno if it
did.. Im having a really hard time with
this rite now.. I think im about to go
to the hospital cuz I cant do this.. I
cant go thru this... I think im having
a nervous breakdown.. Im here all alone
and I dont kno anyone... I dont have
anyone here to talk to or anything.. I
dont kno wut the hell im sposed to do..
I cant be with out him.. Ireally cant..
I feel like id rather die then be with
out him.. I kno that sounds bad..
But thats how I feel rite now.. I dont
even kno wut the hell im writing in here
for about all this.. But I need to talk
to him now.. And he cant go.. If he
goes, my life will be over.. Icant
handle this at all.. Im not made out
for this kinda health question.. I dont
kno wut the hell to do.. Ive been
trying to call the company to see if they
left yet.. But they dont kno.. And I
just really need to talk to him.. He
cant go again.. I cant go thru this
health question again.. Ive been thru
it in 2003 and that was hard... But
this time its even harder... Its too
much for me.. I cant be away from him..
I need him rite now.. I dont kno wut
to do.. Sorry for writing all this
health question.. I just had to write
it somewhere.. Im gonna get off here
and try to get ahold of him some more..
I cant let him go.. I cant go thru
this.. It hurts so !@#^ing bad.. Its
killing me.. I seriously cant do this
:(
:cry:
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vanessalouanne
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Posted: 10-03-05 11:44am
Girl right now more then anything he needs
for you to be strong for him. I know
this seems tough for you but have you
thought yet of what he is going through?
He needs your support and it will just
make it much much harder for him to
concentrate on his job over there. You
need to let him know that your going to be
okay and that you will be waiting for him
to get home. I know its tough but it's
harder for him right now and you need to
realize that and make it as easy for him
as possible. I think you should also
seek out council. Also make sure your
meds are right. If you feel at all
suicidal then you need to go to the doctor
asap. Be tough girl, thats what us
military wives are and if you cant do it
for yourself do it for him.
I'm about to go through this for the third
time and you know what, he needs to be
focused on his job and getting home safe,
not worrying over wheater or not your
going to have a mental break down.
I know that sounds tough, but I think you
kind of need a slap in the face to realize
that you will be okay. Life does go on.
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Kansas
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Aug 2005 Posts: 93
Posted: 10-03-05 13:43pm
Hey. I just went through the same thing
you are right now. My husband was in
iraq from december 18, 2004 to febuary of
2005. I know it really sucks. You will
survive this though. I know it seems
like you cant but you will. Do you have
a family readiness group or support group
of any kind from his unit? We had a
family readiness group but it was
worthless. I ended up meeting some other
ladies with hubbies over there and
starting a yahoo chat session every night.
Sometimes we stayed up all night talking
and crying. It helps to talk with others
who are going through the same thing. I
doubt that anyone will tell you if they
have left or arrived untill some time has
passed. It is for thier safety that some
things are classified. I know that sucks
too. I am sure as soon as your husband
gets to a phone or computer he will
contact you. I know that its scary. My
husband went to kuwait before iraq. When
he was in kuwait I didnt hardly hear from
him at all because there are fewer places
they can get to phones and computers
there. Once he got to iraq it got
better. It also depends on where in iraq
he is. My husband was in bagdad. He is
a commo guy. Luckily since he is commo
he was at a computer all day long most
everyday and we could instant message each
other a lot. If you need someone to
talk to that has been through it feel free
to email me at cha
insawsangel@yahoo.Com. In the mean
time I will pray for your hubby and you.
Please stay strong. You can do it if I
can.
