Yeah I think im kinda bulemic too. Well atleast I know I have some sort of eating disorder. I always think about what food ive ate, and what foods I can. Im a complete calorie counter. I cannot stand the thought of anything like meat or junk food in my stomach, going into my body. I dont think im that bad, I only purge every once in a while, but I know things can get worse. I know I shouldnt ever purge, but sometimes I just eat something and it will sit in the back of my mind, so I go and puke it up. I hate taht I have to do this to myself, but I want to loose weight so bad. Im not anywhere near skinny, but im afraid if I dont stop thinking about food all the time I will end up extremely skinny and unhealthy. It really is very frusterating how food controls my life. I only let myself eat cereal in the morning with a little milk, and I eat a tonne of fruits and some vegetables. I eat vegetarian meat too, for protein. I also eat some tuna every once in a while.

Hi and thanks for replying

you sound like you want help but you dont know what to do because you dont want to make a big deal out of this...

Congrats on recognising that theres something not right... Because your exactly correct. I know just where your coming ffrom, there you say what foods you can eat and how its frusterating. And you also right cause things can get worse... But only if you let them. Eating tuna and veg meat is good for protein, I do not get enough protein cause the foods that have protein in them (except for nuts) are not on my allow list. How old are you? Im 15....

If you are in school you could go and see your school councoller, cause it causes a lot of pain to everyone and yourself when your binge purging 3 times a day.... Not that much to some.. Thats the most for me..

Anyway would love to chat more cya