I'm a guy, and i've always been sensitive. I fell in love and about 2 years ago I lied about something and then confessed, and was left worrying for about a month if she would forgive me. Before she could I had a panic attack which at the time I had no idea what it was, and it made me feel out of control, so I kind of initiated us taking a break thinking that it would solve my problem. Not to mention I had a panic attack after smoking weed so I didnt really know if I had damaged my brain or what. Scared to tell anyone in fear that I had a mental illness, I kept everything to myself and just continued to worry and worry. Finally after I didnt sleep for about a week I decided to go to the doc. They put me on meds but I still hadnt accepted it. I didnt tell anyone...Take my pills right..Basically I took them to be able to sleep..Cuz not sleeping scared the crap out of me. So I remember feeling happy a little bit while taking the meds...But I never went back to the doctor..Because I hated being there...Now I just need some advice. I feel completely not like myself anymore, my brain feels physically weird..I cant think clearly at all...My grades in college are dropping..I feel apathetic because all this time I thought one little magic thing would heal me...So I put off all my emotions and everything until this happened. Now I feel like i've been analyzing every little thing, every symptom, andi ts drove me deep into depression. I just wonder if I should take a sememster off of school to go stay with my sister..Who is wiling to help me...Or should I just get on meds and this will help me through school....But I hate taking meds and I only want to take them if I have to ...And will be able to get off of them...I'm soooo confused..Please help me..Ive told some people but it hasnt really helped cuz I physicalyl feel like restricted!!!! I'm scared..Please help