Hi everyone! I am 18 years old and a new member here so I guess I should tell you my story and why I am depressed. After this story some people may think I have no reason to be as sad as I am but I want yall to know about me and what I am going through.

I guess my boyfriend is my main cause of my depression and I just don't know what to do. We met when we were 16 and I moved in after 6 months and we lasted for a year, until he moved to another city so therefore we couldn't really have a good relationship because I was to paranoid about him being up there without me. So anyway, he moved back home and we just started where things left off so I figured we were back to normal until I find out he is talking to his ex again and he leaves me for her. So I move out and I really got depressed. I was on xanax and paxil and without it I would start to shake and cry. I lost so much weight because of this. For 7 months I was depressed but I can say each month got a little better and I eventually got off the medicine. But that whole seven months he played mind games with me..One month he would want me then he would meet a girl and not talk to me. I am very very close with his family so that made it even harder for me to stay away. So after 7 months he came back to me and we started going back out and then he done it again and dumped me after 2 months. So he realized he wanted me so he calls me and cries to me and tells me he loves me so much and he will always love me so of course I took him back because I am a lonely person and I feel am only happy with him and I just hated the way I felt without him. So I moved back in and it has been great so far. He has been sweet as ever, doing things for me, and more loving than ever. Until yesterday when him and his mom got in an argument and I yelled at him. He left and I didn't see him until this morning b/c he works nights and he wouldn't even speak to me and when he did it was really harsh things and he acted like I meant nothing to him and it hurt so bad because that's how he acted when he met other girls. Well sorry for this long story but I just wanted to know what yall think...I know most of yalls answers will be to leave but I want another way of handling it. I love him and I don't want to throw it all away. I am suspicious that he may have met someone yesterday while he was gone b/c he went shopping for new things to wear..Even new boxers. Could it be that he has met a girl or am I just paronoid from the other times it has happened? Any help is good...