A few months ago it snapped that my
schizophrenia was back so I went and saw
my doctor and she put me on some drugs,
risperdal that did nothing but made me
dizzy, but it occured to me it had always
been here and not that it was back but I
have had it most of my life. I keep
seeing monsters and things in my room I
keep hearing strange noises and voices, I
smell and feel things that arent there, I
get so paranoid over everything, I got
scared my jack skellington keyring was
going to bite me the other day or id get
sucked down the gap stepping on the train,
I have panic attacks being in crowded
places and freak out if a stranger talks
to me in person. I think I am destroying
my boyfriends life crying to him how
scared I am of these things as at the time
I forget theyre not real. He doesnt
want any harm to come to me which I
appreciate he cares but its so hard not to
end my self and to keep living with these
things, they scare me so much. Drugs
are not doing anything I really do not
like therapists does anyone have any
suggestions of what else I could try?
Thanks for the time you have taken to read
this even if you do not reply
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Eljey
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Sep 2005 Posts: 7 Location: West Indies
Scared Posted: 09-20-05 06:26am
Pandoras_box
my heart goes out to you because, from
what you have described, it is not hard to
imagine how distressing your experience
is.
As you realize, there is no real medical
cure for schizophrenia. Drugs may
suppress the symptoms but they cannot
remove the root cause of this problem
because it is essentially a spiritual
problem. Most people do not even want to
consider this, yet many others have found
it to be true and that their deliverance
from this affliction began by
acknowledging the truth about its
nature.
I will be thinking about you and praying
for you, specifically that you will turn
to the only one whom I know has the
complete solution to your problem, and
that is jesus, and that he will cause you
to come into contact with someone who has
had the same problem and can explain to
you better than I can how they were
delivered from it by his power.
Thankyou eljey but it seems everytime I
pray god will stop this everything just
blows up in my face and more things appear
and they become violent, I still pray as
hard as I can but it feels like I have
tried everything, but thankyou anyway :)
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Eljey
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Sep 2005 Posts: 7 Location: West Indies
Scared Posted: 09-20-05 07:19am
Pandoras_box
the reaction you get when you pray to god
confirms the nature of the problem and is
not uncommon. The temptation will be to
give up hope but, even if the future looks
hopeless it is extremely important that
you make a decision now not to give in to
hopelessness.
Continue to call on jesus (in your mind,
as opposed to out loud) and ask him to
intervene on your behalf.
This may sound strange, but what you are
going through now has the potential to
work for your good. I do not say that
lightly. God is able to turn a
desperate, hopeless situation into its
complete opposite. He tells us that he
is a rewarder of those who diligently seek
him - the emphasis being on diligent. We
tend not to become diligent in seeking
after something we need or want until we
become desperate.
I pray that your desperation will provoke
you to diligently seek after god himself -
not just for deliverance from your
affliction, but for the relationship with
himself which he longs for you to
experience.
