Hi,
i have been through years of hell. I gota
out of a very abusive marriage after 22
years. Thae last 7 yaers I was caring for
my dying son. I was at his side 24 hours
a day caring for my angel at home, until
he passesd away in my arms. Then I
divorced my monster husband and was
basically kicked out into the world with
no experience nothing and 2 other girls to
bring up. I got a job woraking from home
because I coudl not deal with people, I
start stuttering and panicking and can't
talk aproperly, buat theminute they go, I
talk fine. I get major migraines with
nausea, now I ahve started getting chest
pains in middle of my chest, sometimes
toward to right side down arm, sometimes
left, n ot bad though. I breath ok. I
can look at photos of my son, I have there
all over....But if I try and think deeply
about my son. My throat closes up and I
start panicking and go into what I call a
silent scream of pain, so intense.From
losing my son to a rare metabolic
disorder. I have had no one comfort me
through all this and I am still alone. My
2 girls now live with their boyfriends, my
youngest 22 year old, taaries to aget me
to join them out to parks, beach,e tc...
But I do not faeel comfortable around
people and get weird and want to go home.
What does this sound like. I need to find
out so I know how to deal with what I
have. I could stay home and never leave
it again.
Need help please.........
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truckstophero
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Jul 2005 Posts: 84 Location: alabama
Posted: 09-18-05 20:45pm
Sounds like you are close to agoraphobia.
Hang on in there. My aunt had breast
cancer, amalgam poisoning which almost
killed her and made her sick for 3 years,
her husband left her after 18 years of
marriage, she had to go back to school
cause she wasnt educated, now her youngest
daughter is having these bizarre migraine
attacks with no apparent cause, her son is
bullied and a loner and the oldest
daughter has turned against her and blames
her for the divorce.
Its all messed up but she tries to be
active, get out, go to church, keep
positive. She speaks to herself and says
I will not dwell on the past, I onyl have
one life and dont want to pronounce myself
dead already, there are plenty people I
can help, things I can do, places I could
volunteer. Just get out there, help out
iwth some unfortunate poeple, put
something abck into the community, it will
do wonders for your life, your health, and
you will see that you can make such a
difference by doing such small things .
That will give you alot of confidence back
that I am sure your failed marriage took
away.
Go for it!
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Tracey
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Aug 2005 Posts: 20
Posted: 09-19-05 13:34pm
Thank you for sharing your story with me.
I appreciate it and it makes me realise I
am not alone in this world with my
problem, there are many others out there
and as you say, I can get out and help
them, which I would really love to do :)
thanks again
