I Am a Scared 19 Year Old

No one is worth your life. Stay or leave--i understand feeling trapped and alone, but no one is worth your life. So, you may have failed with this one--you can get up and go on. Remember how it would hurt your mom and brother, that is not a sacrifice for making him feel quilty. You are better than that. Please hon, you can find the strength to go on .

God loves you and he sees your pain. He can fix your heart ache with one tiny touch of his finger. Just call on him--jesus and he will help you.

God help her in the name of jesus and protect her from that suicidal(murder) spirit. Defend her honor god, and let the sun shine threw. In jesus name thank you god

god loves you &
i love you too

joanna

I know what you are feeling. When we were just dating my husband used to get soo mad at me, and would threaten to hit me. One day I think he just snapped, we were fighting about him having his friends over all the time and he wanted to go out with them again and I wanted us to spend some time together and go on a date, but he ended up pushing me onto the floor in our bathroom and held me against the tub choking me. It was really hard for me to breathe and I was already crying and I was hyperventilating, he told me he wanted me to leave and never come back, so I said that I would. He left to hang out with his friends. I went to my parents house where I lived and just went to my room and just sat there for hours. About 3 or 4 hours later he called me, I didn't pick up the phone, my cell just kept ringing and ringing, and I had like 6 messages. I listened to them all, it was him apologizing and crying telling me how sorry he was and how he wanted to talk and work things out. I didn't want to, I always told my self that I would be one of those people who wouldn't be abused, not once! Eventually I answered and he begged me to come over, and I did. I was still so upset and crying the whole time. When I arrived I told him not to come near me and if I was going to be over there then he couldn't touch me, I think he then realized how much he really hurt me. He spent the whole night apologizing to me. Ever since then he hasn't once touched me. When we were going to get married he started talking to our minister about anger issues and such and I think he came to the root of his problem. He never went out with his friends until about 6 months into our marriage. He is a much better person now and I think that he realizes it. I know my situation isn't the same as yours, and I really think that your boyfriend needs some type of counseling. I really think that you should leave this guy, do not go back to him, if you tried once before and it didn't help then it won't help now. You will find somebody else who will love you and cherrish you without having to put his hands on you. God bless and I hope you find the strength to move on!

You might love him but surely you do not have any respect for him, leave him and do not look back, go forward. I have been there, believe me, they say they will change and they do for about a week and if you are lucky. This guy has problems and obviously, you cannot help him, aand he will twist things and make you feel like it is your fault and it is not!
Of course no one can tell you what to do but if you have any respect for yourself you know what you have to do. Remember, you never lose the love you have for someone but somehow, it will never grow.
Good luck, keep us posted on how you are doing, do not allow any man to physically or mentally abuse you, you are too good for that! You girls are so fortunate these days, when I was 19 we did not have all of these places to go for help, now you do.

Hey lostandconfused,

i can relate to your story, especially one sentence you said "we've had good times but I feel like there is more good than bad".

I don't know how many times I have said that to my friends..But when that comes out, you know it's time to leave.

I know it's easier said than done, but you have to find the strength.

Best wishes.

I am going to tell you the same thing that I told someone else on this forum.



Please listen to what I say here. You must leave this man now! I have been in a situation just like yours and it is not worth it. I was so scared to leave the man that I was with. I was deathly afraid of him and what he would do to me if I left him. But one night we had one of our many fights and I realized that I had had enough of it. I knew that if I didn't leave him right then that I never would and he would end up killing me one day. So, the first chance I got I left him. We both left for work that day and instead of me going to work I came right back home after her left and I packed up all of my stuff and I left. That has been about 8 years ago. I have since met and married the most wonderful man in the world. He is so good to me and I can't believe that I let this other man have that many years of my life. It was a waste. However, I have never been happier now. This man that i'm with now is the best man I could have found. He is respectful and honest. I never thought I would find a man like him. My ex always told me that I would never find a good man, because noone would want me. Well, he was wrong! Idiot! Now he is still a loser and I am happy. I promise you that you will not regret this decision. You will be so glad that you did leave him. It will be hard, but you have to stay strong no matter what he says to you to get you to come back to him. Do not go back to him no matter what he says. Because he is not going to change. Please listen to me and take my advise. You will be glad that you did, plus you will gain your life back. You deserve to have your own life again with family and friends. Please keep me updated on your situation. If you want to talk, please let me know and I will send you my email address. Good luck to you!