Hey raven I think that u should tell ur mom about it becausse then maybe she can help u then again just like tell some1 close to u so that they can try to help u out I kno its probably scary for u so dont do it on ur own tell some1 or if u dont want to tell them leave clues so that they can ask u but plz do something cuz this is serious just tryin to help I hope u get better :)

Hey there!

I know you've probley heard this before but having an eating disorder is not just about making yourself sick or starving, its about how you think and feel about yourself and life which is usually in a negative way. People who suffer from eating disorders don't just have low self esteem, they usually have no sense of self at all.
An eating disorder is a way to cope with life but is a very destructive way and can cause alot of medical problems as well as alot of pain mentally.
It can be very lonely and very issolating at times.
I would really reccomend that you get help because this can really take over your life.
I really hope that you tell your mam because she can help you. I can't tell you how much this can control your life and even ruin it. I'm talking form personal experience.
It isn't a way to live, you begin to just exist rather then live.
I have lost all of my friends and so much more, you deserve so much more then that.
You desevre to be happy and content with yourself and your life.
With regards to your dad, itsnot your problem that he wants you to lose weight although I know it can be tough. What reasons he feels that you need to lose weight I think he should ask himself why that is.
If people are truely happy with themselves then weight doesn't even come into their minds, its not about weight, there is always an underlinding issue and with regards to eating disorders there can be many different things which have caused it.
Your father is not right in telling you that you have to lose weight but thats his own stuff, when you said that I just thought well what is it in him that he values weight and appearance so much, he could have certain issues that neither you or him are even aware of. I know this is a difficult thing to ask of you but please do not take it personally, him wanting you to lose weight has nothing to do with you but him.
You are good enough, always remember that! He cannot make you feel not good enough if you don't let him.
You are the one who can chose to take what he says on board or you could chose to realise that he is the one who needs to deal with certain things and you should chose to consentrate on how good enough you are and how great a person you are.
I know I might not of helped but if you need to talk or have an questions please write to me anytime.

I hope your well,

take care!

Thanks for replying. Its really not easy to talk about somthing like that with ppl especially my family. It hasnt gotten any better, I done it again this morning, I know this isnt a healthy thing to do, I cant stop. :cry:

I'm sorry to hear things are hard for you right now. I would feel that it is something that is important to bring up, as personally, I don't think it's possible to recover without support of some sort. Can you right a letter to your parents perhaps? I would encourage you to talk to them about it afterwards though. If you just wrote in the letter that you felt they needed to know, but you didn't know how else to tell them.

When I was in the behaviours of my ed, I alwasy felt so much more shame surrounding the purging and self harm, than when I was undereating, but that's just me.

Best of luck, and keep us posted. Full recovery really is possible. I am not yet recovered, but know that I am now nearing the end of my journey - but then that may take another number of months or so yet...