I am only 18 years old and my life is a
complete mess. I have no friends what so
ever, I am crying constantly, I suffer
from several panic attacks in public, I am
constantly laughed at by people because of
my apearance and I cant stop thinking
about death and suicide and how this pain
would be ended if I was dead.
I cant even get out of the house to see a
doctor because I am so terrified to leave
the house for long time.
Please please please help me
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angel6932
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2005 Posts: 788 Location: US
Posted: 09-11-05 17:05pm
Honestly what are you so scared of? You
really need help trust me on this one. I
am 20yrs old and I am bypolar. I have
been depressed my whole life and it suked.
I lost all my friends and I was just down
right misserable. I lost my mom when I
was 16 then the next yr my best friend
died in a house fire then the next yr I
lost a baby then the next my grandmother
died. I was seriously thinking the same
things as you but I got help about two yrs
ago and now I am happly married and a baby
on the way.
Seriously what is going on talk to me. I
would hate to see another teenager dead bc
everyone in this messed up world couldnt
take time to help them. Well I am here
for you. I will do my best to help you in
any way I can.
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forbsey
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jul 2005 Posts: 29 Location: ,
Posted: 09-12-05 06:23am
Thanks for replying. Sorry to hear about
the unfortunate things which have happened
to you. Nice to see you getting on well
now and all the best with the new baby :)
the main thing I am scared of is people.
I was serverly bullied at school and I
cant trust anyone, not even family
members. I used to have loads of friends
and now most of them have drifted away and
I find it very difficult to meet new
people. I know that I need help and I am
going to try and see a doctor as soon as
pos, I know that if I dont i'll end up
taking my life. I cant live like this
anymore.
Its comforting to know that it is possible
to get out of this mess as you did, good
luck for the future and god bless :wink:
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angel6932
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2005 Posts: 788 Location: US
Trust Posted: 09-12-05 08:23am
Ok yeah I understand what you mean. Put
it this way I am just now starting to
trust people that is not easy for me to
do. But I do have to try. The worst
thing is I dont trust my husband and I
have no reason not to.
I can however say that I became a
christian and yes I know not everyone
feels the same and taht is ok. But it was
the real thing that brought me out of
this.
Well, what is wrong with your appearance?
And are you sure that they're laughing
and you might not just be suffering from
extreme social anxiety(imagining people
making judgements about you and laughing)
being worm food won't help your situation
by the way. However, don't listen to
useless overused cliche's like things can
only get better. You're going to have to
make things get better by yourself because
no one can help you except for yourself.
If you don't do something soon, how you
sound, things will only get worse.
You're going to have to see a doctor no
matter what because of your depression and
social anxiety. This world sucks and you
should try the make the best of what you
have been given. See a doctor, get on
something that'll help and maybe start
working out. Exercise seriously helps
when you are depressed. Find something
you like though so you'll keep at it.
