I have never been one who has made friends easily - I was always so afraid of my own shadow when I was a kid. I always feared being ridiculled, or laughed at. And yes, this did happen quite a lot in school etc.
However, during my recovery I have made some terrific friends. We have shared so much. In one way this is good, as you do learn different things from different friends. However, there is one friend, who lately, I have been getting an inkling that she's pulling away from me. This makes me sad, as we have shared so much together. I know it's partially to do with the fact that we're both changing too. That what we needed from each other before, is no longer needed etc. We did have a talk some time back, about needing a certain amount of space from each other. I am glad that we could talk this through, and I was hoping that our conversation might help to bring us closer together. After a few months, I feel that I am still in the same place in regards to this.
I wish I felt strong enough to broach it with her, but am scared. I mentioned it to another friend, who would not know the friend in question, and she said it could be something that my intuition is saying, and if that's the case, it could be something that the other person isn't yet aware of. She also mentioned that we may drift apart for a while, but her gut instinct was that we'd probably move back to being close friends again. I'm not so sure though. My friend thought this, through what she knows of me etc.
I'm not really sure what i'm looking for here, but maybe if anyone else has experienced something similar. Whether it be a reality, or just their own insecurities etc.
If we were to drift apart, I would feel so sad, after sharing so much together. I respect that we both need our space etc, but there's space and there's space.