Recovery is 100% possible. It is out
there for anyone who wants it. However,
it won’t happen overnight. It takes a
lot of determination and commitment. I
used to focus so much on the bigger
picture of attaining full recovery that I
lost sight of what it meant for me. I
have found during my recovery, that there
is a difference between really wanting
recovery, and wishing for it. When I say
wishing for recovery, I mean, wanting full
recovery, but without having to do the
work in order to get there.
Recovery brings so many things to the
fore. So many feelings, which are
unpleasant (especially after being numb
for so long) – however, it is now my
belief that it is through pain that we
firstly, become stronger, but also, get to
really know ourselves. If life was
smooth, how would we ever truly grow!?!
I am now nearing the end of my recovery
– living and loving life. The urges to
self-destruct don’t creep up like they
used to. Usually when they do, I know
that there is something going on, which I
need to address. Knowing that I have a
choice is empowering. The urges to self
destruct don’t overpower me like they
used to – it usually happens only once
every three or four months.
The body image was something that I have
struggled with in the past, but have
discovered that for the most part, it was
a mask surrounding some of my own
confusions over who I was. Also, I have
rediscovered my love of dancing – I find
dancing to be a great way to appreciate my
body – everyone’s body is unique
afterall!
The hardest thing in my recovery has to be
letting it go - letting go of many things,
including the eating disorder. It is
letting go of old values and beliefs,
letting go of who I knew (or thought I
knew) I was, letting go of who I thought I
was supposed to be. But also, learning
to accept the person that I have become.
I am now in a place where I am thankful
for the eating disorder, as it has made me
who I am today. If I had not suffered
the trials and tribulations of recovery, I
would not be the person that I am
today!!!
I would like to encourage everyone out
there, especially those just starting out
on their road to recovery, to hang in
there – as full recovery is possible, if
you really want it! It takes time to
really want it for yourself, but everyone
has the ability within them to recover!
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lisabeth
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Aug 2005 Posts: 22 Location: bermuda
Thank You !! Posted: 09-14-05 19:41pm
I am at a place where I really want to be
in recovary, I am at one week of not bp
doesnt sound long but is fab,been fighting
this for 12 years.
Your email is very inspiring and I do
belive you are right you do have to truley
want it .
Thanks love lisabeth
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sadems
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Oct 2005 Posts: 2 Location: sydney australia
Recovery Posted: 10-05-05 09:54am
Thankyou for your boots of confidence im
in recovery sort of and feel greta
emma :d
