I can only conclude that you have been worrying without any reasons. There is no reason to get feared for getting tested , unless you walk into a clinic or testing center which askes abruptly for an identity. Just research on a voluntary testing center that specialises on hiv testing and treatment in your area, and talk to a counsellor if available. They will treat you with care and emotional support before advising you to get tested. They will also not ask you for your identity as that is a mistake by law.
Do not go to conclusions by symptoms. I did the same mistake as well, and got relieved of all stress and anxiety only after I tested myself. So bring the courage to yourself and feel human. After all we are all humans and we do mistakes now and then. I do not know what religion you observe. But I will surely remember you in my prayers for a deliverance.
Regards and prayers. Kiklis2k
