I have been struggling with medical issues for many years now and 6 years ago I was in severe pain in my back and after surgery, I was left not being able to walk. Through perseverance, determination and fighting with our medical system and three years of not being able to walk, I went to another province and had surgery and walked out on my own accord a week later. My life continued to improve and I was able to return to work and begin to regain my life I had previously lost.

However, 2 months ago something happened with my neck and I am struggling with severe left sided head and neck pain as well as radiating pain, numbness and tingling down both arms. Nothing is helping and once again my family physician who is new is not doing what she should.

I can't deal with this again. I don't have the energy and or strength to go through this again. All I see is a hugh black hole and I won't go there again. I struggle daily with suicide because between the pain and the lack of support it is very discouraging. I have the support of other medical professionals who are treating me, however they are not able to request the test/procedures required, which makes it that more frustrating.

I am so scared of having to deal with the same issues I had to with my back. I just can't go through that again and I won't. I confided in a friend and I am seeing a psychologist, however I live alone and the nights are the hardest to work through.

I don't know if I have the strength to go though this. Does anyone have any suggestions. I just feel so desperate and I can't handle the pain as it has been constant for 7 straight weeks and pain meds are not helping.

I just don't know what to do.

Stich