I was the victim of rape at the age of ten. For years that is all I thought about is killing myself. I am now 47 with two beautiful children who both got married last year. I use to not believe in praying, but I starting praying at the age of 12 years. Asking god to help me and now I believe he was there all the time. I use to ask him why me? If you are god why did you let this happen to me? Now I can help others that have been abused because I know their pain. Hang in there. Start living for yourself, get involved in things you really like. Please try meditaion and prayer. I don't attend church but I try to pray everyday. Now I think life is great. I pray you can turn you life around. May god keep you and my prayers are with you right now.

I sympathise with you I really do, but you were right, there is always a way to fix your problems.

It's far from easy but maybe you and your husband aren't meant to be, if you aren't happy with him maybe you should get out of that relationship. I appreciate it's hard now you are married but look at the state you are in. My first piece of advice would be to get out of that situation. How old are you, do you have a job? Could you get a place of your own? Sounds scary but hey if you are feeling like this you have got nothing to lose.

I know for a fact if you get through this difficult patch and find the strength to sort out the situation (by getting out of it) you will find happiness again and you will be so happy you didn't do anything stupid while u were feeling low. You will find someone out there who cares about you and loves u, and treats you properly, they will make your problems go away, they will make you feel special. I understand the situation you are in. Be strong, you can make it on ur own, be a fighter, and you will find happiness. You don't need any1, and you especially don't need people who ruin your life. There are a lot of decent people in this world amongst all the scum, remember that.

I know what it feels like to feel hopeless and empty, but u cant give up by ending ur life. U should really try going to counceling. I know when people hear that they think of like laying on a couch talkin to some weird shrink, but it's not like that at all anymore trust me. I have been going to a female one for three years now and im not a 100% happy person all the time but I do feel better about myself. I know that if im having a bad couple of weeks I can go to her and she will just listen. She wont judge me or anything like that just listen. There will be no harn in tryin and I think u really need to talk to someone. Good luck :wink:

Hi hun:

you deserve more! Tell your husband you dont want to be put in the middle and you need more from him, but if he doesnt want to give you more tell him you need time to straighten out your life, talk to your Dr. Or a counselor. They both can help you. I really dont know how he treats you. But if you would like to talk email me:

i am a great listener.

Take care and I will pray for strength for you.


Lisa