Delayed Post Partum Depression??? Posted: 09-01-05 21:00pm
I think I am going crazy. Please don't
judge me for this. One minute I am so in
love with my baby, and the next I catch
myself thinking weird stuff. I can
almost visualize him being thrown against
a wall, and sliding down, and being held
underwater gasping of air.
My heart is racing right now, I don't know
what to do. I am embarrassed as hell, I
cannot tell my husband, he'll think I am a
lunatic. Is this normal?
I have tears streaming down my face. I
am such a horrible person, I don't deserve
this beautiful perfect little person. I
really feel like I could do something to
him, I am so ashamed.
This only happens at night ( these
thoughts)..Or when my husband is away at
work.
I didn't think that this would happen to
me. I am in a happy marriage, we are
very successful, and financially set, and
I am thinking like that crazy person who
drowned her 5 kids.
I need help immediately!!
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Saniya
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Sep 2005 Posts: 11 Location: Texas
Posted: 09-24-05 21:44pm
Tell your husband about the way you feel.
Your not a horrible person. Im sure that
theres other people who have felt the same
way you feel. As long as you dont really
do anything to him. Trust, your love for
that baby boy wont let you harm him like
that. When ever you find yourself being
frustrated with what ever he does that
makes you feel that way just take a deep
breath and look at him, you will see how
much you love him and just take him in
your arms and let him know he is loved by
you. Your his mom, he was under your
heart for 40 weeks. Its just a fase and
it will pass.:(
