Joined: 11 Aug 2005 Posts: 69 Location: north carolina
I Feel Terrible... Posted: 08-31-05 16:54pm
I have been switched from working 3rd
shift to working on 1st shift. Changing
shifts isn't the problem though, it's all
the people. There are more people around
during the day. I feel so paranoid all
day about all those people around me. My
risperdal isn't helping my paranoia. Is
it supposed to?
I managed to get through monday and
tuesday, but today I called in sick. I
feel like they are all talking about me
and trying to make me crazy. I will
probably get in trouble for missing today,
as I have missed quite a few days now. I
just knew when I woke up that I wouldn't
be able to handle it. I feel so
overwhelmed in there and crowded. There
is alot of pressure on me right now to
keep working although it is very
difficult. My boyfriend can't pay the
bills by himself, and I need to keep my
insurance.
I have been having episodes of depression
lately too. When I say episodes I mean
they are usually short but severe. When
it happens all I can think of is suicide
and dying. I am afraid I will end up dead
one of these times because I get so close
to doing it, and yes I already have a
plan.
Sometimes I wonder if I might be better
off going to the hospital, but I am afraid
they won't take me seriously. I already
feel this way about my therapist. I tell
her what bothers me but it seems like she
only hears what she wants to.
Sorry if this seems like rambling
nonsense, I don't really have anyone I
feel comfortable talking to.
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Relyt
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Jun 2005 Posts: 30
Posted: 09-02-05 03:50am
Kitty.....Ill be your friend....
I know what its like to be so overwhelmed
with everything that you just want it all
to stop. I have tried to committ suicide
many times throughout my life and have had
some extreamly bad experiences with it.
When life gets overwhelming it is good to
take a break, go away for atleast 24 hours
and dont talk to anyone! Sit and think
about a plan that might make your life
better, think things out in your head, and
come to peace within yourself. Once you
have rationalized everything it is always
good to talk to a loved one about the
situation and get his or her advice and
support. I have read some of your post
kitty and I think you have a very good
heart. You say people at work are
talking about you? Is this just regular
self concious-ness or do you have a
condition I dont know about. If you want
to talk more please please post and we
will chat. I would love someone to
become email-buddies with, as I need
someone to talk to just as much as you do.
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blackwinded
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Sep 2005 Posts: 45 Location: US of A
Posted: 09-03-05 01:18am
If you are a danger to yourself and feel
like you need to be in the hospital, then
that is where you should be. They will
take you seriously and admit you to the
psych ward if you go to the hospital and
tell them you are suicidal and have a plan
and all that. They will have to. If they
don't, they are pretty much breaking the
law (i think)
have you told your therapist about your
episodes of depression and how quickly you
become suicidal?. If he/she isn't taking
that seriously, then it sounds like it's
time for a new therapist.
I've been in the hospital a couple times
for being suicidal. I was only there for
about a week each time. Likely, you wont
be there much longer than a week or 2
yourself. But it can be helpful, and
mostly what they will do is put you on
medication to get you stabelized. They
wont release you until you feel you are
safe to leave.
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blackwinded
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Sep 2005 Posts: 45 Location: US of A
Posted: 09-03-05 01:19am
If you are a danger to yourself and feel
like you need to be in the hospital, then
that is where you should be. They will
take you seriously and admit you to the
psych ward if you go to the hospital and
tell them you are suicidal and have a plan
and all that. They will have to. If they
don't, they are pretty much breaking the
law (i think)
have you told your therapist about your
episodes of depression and how quickly you
become suicidal?. If he/she isn't taking
that seriously, then it sounds like it's
time for a new therapist.
I've been in the hospital a couple times
for being suicidal. I was only there for
about a week each time. Likely, you wont
be there much longer than week or 2
yourself. But it can be helpful, and
mostly what they will do is put you on
medication to get you stabelized. But
they wont release you until you feel you
are safe. So if you feel you have to be
there for a month, then they will keep
you there.
Sorry you feel so terrible. I hope it
gets better.
