What Is Wrong With Me? How Can I Fix It? Posted: 08-30-05 19:44pm
(this was also posted in the sleep
disorders forum)
i want to start by saying that i'm going
to a psychologist and i'm seeing a
psychiatrist in two weeks. Until then no
one knows what I have, and if anyone knows
please give me some suggestions.
I am a 17 year old male. My entire life I
struggled with horrific dreams that were
mainly terrifying because of how real they
were, it might sound crazy, but the memory
and experience of my dream was just as
real as reality. Two years ago I stopped
sleeping because the dreams were so
terrifying that I would rather live with a
few hours of sleep than face them every
night. So I lived and functioned normally
after a couple months of only getting 3-4
hours of sleep, now I am completely
adjusted to my sleep patterns of
3am-7am.
Two months ago it got worse, now my
sleeping problem has returned, but now
when I wake from a dream it is difficult
if not impossible for me to tell if what I
experienced was a dream or reality,
because both were as real as each other.
I once woke and thought it was a week
later than what it really was, because my
dream lasted near a week, it took me hours
of apathy and fear to click out of it and
realize what the day was. I decided to
seek medical help. The past 2+ months of
therapy have only helped to throw around
ideas what I have, but to no avail.
About three weeks ago I stopped dreaming
altogether. And my waking life had become
worse. I started seeing things and
hearing things. It isn’t all the time,
I have attacks that I am in extreme fear
of things in my house but i’m not sure
if they are in my house, voices that do
not seem to be there, it hits and I just
close my eyes and beg for it to go away, I
become overcome with terrible feelings. I
decided to refer to my life in two
different stages of consciousness. I
cannot tell if I am awake and asleep, both
as equally real as the other. The dreams
have returned as well as the feelings that
can only be described as delusions. I am
posting this because today I woke up and
could not recall what day it was, and I
slept for 13 hours, which is 3 times as
much sleep as I usually get. My dream
lasted a few days and I woke up and it
took me a while to figure out which day it
was, I didn’t go to my classes because
of the confusion and I am just confused.
I am also losing my memory. Memories from
just yesterday are vague, I can not
remember very much for any period of time.
It wasn’t until an hour ago when I
tried to convey the feeling of this memory
lost to my best friend that I could
explain it, it felt like a dream.
Yesterday feels like a dream, and I
don’t know why.
What is this? Schizophrenia? Parasomnia?
Is this a sleeping disorder or a chemical
imbalance?
I know i'm leaving something out, if you
have any questions of symptoms or
anythings please respond.
Ljd
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blackwinded
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Sep 2005 Posts: 45 Location: US of A
Posted: 09-03-05 01:48am
Wow! Im sorry you are going through this.
I don't know much about parasomnia, but
from what I do know, it sounds like thats
what you could have. Then again, i've
been told by a few of my psychiatrists
that people with schizophrenia can have
really intense and realistic dreams and
have trouble distinguishing what is real
life and what is a dream. I often confuse
my dreams with real life.L I can go for
hours believing something was real, but
later realize it was a dream. This
happens to me real frequently. There are
a few dreams I had when I was younger that
I had always believed really happened
until recently, because after thinking
hard about them, I realize they could not
have really happened.
I also have horrible nightmares a lot that
are really vivid and seem so real. For
the next day or two, I will not be able to
get the dream out of my head because it
seemed so real and it will make me
depressed. Yet, I will still be able to
realize that it had been a dream, so I
don't know if this is the same as what you
experience.
But, if your also having hallucinations
(which are believed to be waking
dreams--like the body is still in rem,
while it is awake) then it could be
schizophrenia or something similar.
What has your therapist said about all
this? Maybe you should print out what you
wrote here and show it to the psychiatrist
you are going to see.
Anyhow, im sure the psychiatrist will be
able to give you a better answer than I
have. Good luck
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sad sometimes
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Sep 2005 Posts: 2 Location: london ontario
Mind And Personality Disorders Posted: 09-10-05 16:00pm
I hav suffered all my life due to family
that have mind disorders.Sometimes I often
questioned my own mental health.One thing
I now for sure dealing with
memories,medication,family problems,and
various other factors can be stressful and
very challenging.Education and
understanding are helping me alot'
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flowerlight
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Dec 2005 Posts: 15 Location: UK
You Posted: 12-06-05 22:37pm
Calm ... Still ... I hate those dreams,
I hate the confusion that goes with the
days that pass as defused reality. Yet
we are here, we breath, we live. If you
dreams are horrid, make your days as
bright as possible. Because if you are
dreaming then how could it be happy if
they as horrible as you discreibe. Maybe
then both will sometime become happy (as
life, with its constant trials can be,
lol).
Sometimes these things feal anoyingly
pointless and frustrating, and even thou
we can not do anything about them we sure
still as hell can complain!! :-)
best wishes 2 u!!!
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jenweric
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Feb 2006 Posts: 12 Location: pa
Dreams Posted: 02-15-06 21:07pm
It's been awhile since you posted your
concern, and I hope you got the help you
needed. Did you know that lack of sleep
can make you hallucinate??? Also,
schizophrenia is mainly hereditary. So,
look at family background. I don't know
your situation, but I think there are
other things going on in your life that is
the main concern. Get that fixed, then
your dreams will get better.
