I want to start by saying that i'm going to a psychologist and i'm seeing a psychiatrist in two weeks. Until then no one knows what I have, and if anyone knows please give me some suggestions.
I am a 17 year old male. My entire life I struggled with horrific dreams that were mainly terrifying because of how real they were, it might sound crazy, but the memory and experience of my dream was just as real as reality. Two years ago I stopped sleeping because the dreams were so terrifying that I would rather live with a few hours of sleep than face them every night. So I lived and functioned normally after a couple months of only getting 3-4 hours of sleep, now I am completely adjusted to my sleep patterns of 3am-7am.
Two months ago it got worse, now my sleeping problem has returned, but now when I wake from a dream it is difficult if not impossible for me to tell if what I experienced was a dream or reality, because both were as real as each other. I once woke and thought it was a week later than what it really was, because my dream lasted near a week, it took me hours of apathy and fear to click out of it and realize what the day was. I decided to seek medical help. The past 2 months of therapy have only helped to throw around ideas what I have, but to no avail.
About three weeks ago I stopped dreaming altogether. And my waking life had become worse. I started seeing things and hearing things. It isn’t all the time, I have attacks that I am in extreme fear of things in my house but i’m not sure if they are in my house, voices that do not seem to be there, it hits and I just close my eyes and beg for it to go away, I become overcome with terrible feelings. I decided to refer to my life in two different stages of consciousness. I cannot tell if I am awake and asleep, both as equally real as the other. The dreams have returned as well as the feelings that can only be described as delusions. I am posting this because today I woke up and could not recall what day it was, and I slept for 13 hours, which is 3 times as much sleep as I usually get. My dream lasted a few days and I woke up and it took me a while to figure out which day it was, I didn’t go to my classes because of the confusion and I am just confused. I am also losing my memory. Memories from just yesterday are vague, I can not remember very much for any period of time. It wasn’t until an hour ago when I tried to convey the feeling of this memory lost to my best friend that I could explain it, it felt like a dream. Yesterday feels like a dream, and I don’t know why.
What is this? Schizophrenia? Parasomnia? Is this a sleeping disorder or a chemical imbalance?
I know i'm leaving something out, if you have any questions of symptoms or anythings please respond.
Ljd