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keys101

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My 2 Cents Posted: 09-25-07 14:03pm


well... as a former cutter myself all i can say is that the ability to stop isn't coming from anywhere else- you can't rely on an outside source to be ok with yourself. it has to come from inside you, and you have to let it come out. it's there, trust me.

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Posted: 09-26-07 00:43am


I used to burn myself often. I found that through time, especially when stress or anger was involved, it got more violent and dangerous. I always felt intense feelings of regret and guilt when I was done too. Not because I burned, per say, but because I knew that taking anger out on myself like that was bad for me. Through a lot of work, though, I stopped. I tried very hard to find replacements for my burning, and it worked... running, writing, music. I'm here if anyone wants to talk!

viboy

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Cutting Posted: 10-26-07 10:31am


It is a relief, I think we all get that, I am a half reocovered bulimic and slef harmer and you should go to a gp or use groups like this to talk out WHY you feel like this. Why is school so bad? Life? you? why is it good? Unless advised a LOT, dont let them shove antidepressants down you, above all if you throw it all up it messes your head, but also coz its best to avoid them if possiebl unless nothing else works. I like the suggestion of destroying plywood with a screwdriver, sounds like something I could do. You nee dto vent your frustration on something or someone else, and try to think about WHAT it is that's so bad that needs venting by what you're doing. Good luck

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Cutting Posted: 10-26-07 19:07pm


I cut and when i first started it was scratches and pokes but as things got worse and harder to handle i pressed hard and i found that now everytime i am stressed or mad or sad that the first thing i wanna do is run to a sharp object but i have relaxed on it and found ways to cope better with the stress and haveing someone to talk to can be a life saver really it can But i wish you the best of luck and if you need me pm me

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Still . . . Posted: 11-18-07 20:21pm


I am older than all of you and I still do it. I am ashamed and confused by it all, but can't stop. I fight with the urge every day. It is very depressing. . .but I still have faith that one day I will no longer want to. Have faith, speak with ppl you trust and will not betray you.

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I Used to Cut Myself Posted: 11-24-07 14:30pm


I realize now, this was years ago, that its b/c I was just in so much pain and I felt so alone- I had moved to a new state with my love and when we would go through extremely hard times (b/c of his attempted cheating) I would feel so lonely and worthless like I am not good or pretty enuf and all my family and friends were so far away so I just started cutting and then even when I moved back home I kept doing it as a way to deal with pain, what stopped me was sheer embarassment-from when sister and mother would see my shirt sleeve slip up an there were the tell tale lines-

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Posted: 12-01-07 01:45am


I cut my hands. Usually just in one spot though. It's not very noticeable.

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the bloodletting chronicles Posted: 01-17-08 01:58am


i have been an off and on cutter up until recently when it became an addiction. it is the only way i can get rid of the emotional pain i suffer. i am on meds and they don't work, the razor cutting my skin is all that does. i have, of late, begun to use my razor to write poetry in my blood in a notebook i entitled "the bloodletting chronicles." i think i am getting better, but only because of my cutting and my poetry. comments?

demoncatcat

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me to Posted: 02-13-08 22:18pm


I stopped cutting like a year ago but im in my old habits now... it was really bad in the 7th to like the 9th grade now im in the middle of my 10th grade year and it just all came back over me.... if anyone needs to talk im here...

popsicko

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Posted: 03-28-08 22:22pm


So.... I still cut. I am 30 years old and have been cutting for 15 years. Although I have slowed down quite a bit in my adulthood I still find myself jumping to a razor blade the minute things get difficult. Dealing with things on a day to day basis is fine. Dealing with stressful situations in my marriage aren't as easily handled. I have a 10, 8 year old set of daughters who don't, and will never know. My wife knows that I used to cut but doesn't know that I still do. I find more creative ways of hiding my cuts so she doesn't ask any questions. I wish I knew how to stop. The cuts are great in the beginning but become a nuisance the next day when I go to work(mechanic). I was molested by my brother for 7 years as a child and my parent put me through hell trying to fix me. Sad thing is that I think I am broke permanently. I could never let my girls know about this because I am ashamed of it. I coach their soccer teams and they are my life. I am glad to see that I am not alone, although it saddens me to see the pain of others.

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Posted: 04-28-08 23:05pm


I'm a cutter also

ndsmhlp

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i get you Posted: 05-06-08 20:27pm


a few years ago istarted cutting and i was lilke an addict! i couldn't stop! i slowed down a bit after someone found out! its like being naked on stage when someone important finds out! i know how hard it is! sometimes it justbuilds up and u know just one cut would fix things for a little while. i've actually found that running helps me out! ican finally get rid of all the energy that i couldn't let out! when i get pissed off now i try to go running instead of cutting.

glamourxwhore

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Posted: 05-13-08 15:05pm


i cut myself all the time but tbh it's stopped helping now it's just something i do coz im used to it. it doesnt even hurt that much anymore. my mum found out about it one night but i dont think she understands how much i do it or even think about it. lately it's consumed my life even when i feel slightly frustatrated its the first thing i think of doing. iv been doing it now for 6 years and tbh i didnt even notice it was that long till i was cutting my arms with a razor on my 18th birthday. i really want to stop now but i dont think i ever will and i have noone to talk to or help me when i get the urge to do it. i hate having to hide my arms or when i wear dresses n short shleves make excuses to ppl about what the marks on arm are from. i find it easier now to burn myself or to makes bruises as there easier to explain. i supose i just like making myself hurt coz i hate myself.

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over 3 1/2 years now Posted: 05-14-08 08:43am


ive been cutting for a while. Ive tried to quit off and on and i recently agreed medical treatment, but because of financial reasons it has been a slow and unproductive proccess so far. Ive grown past hating it, and im also past hating myself for it. Though i still want to quit, ived lived with it for the core of my adolescence (12-16 and still counting) so ive learned to accept it as what it is. my addiction

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Posted: 06-07-08 00:59am


i think i need help with this

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Posted: 06-14-08 15:29pm


Ive been diagnosed with depression 3 months ago bt ive been a cutter for years i think its my way of dealing with things and now i think im addicted to it i need to cut at least twice a day .. ive also tryed to take an overdose numerous times

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Posted: 06-22-08 12:36pm


cutter here.. i feel like my life is falling apart...

cutsinthedust19

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cutting Posted: 06-23-08 17:06pm


hi, my name is Crissy, i am 19 years old and started cutting myself when i was 12. i recently got a boyfriend that went through the same thing a couple times and he told me that he would never have me do that to myself. He took my "cutting kit" and my favorite blades away and hid them. And now he is drudging up all these memories from my past so that he can fully understand why i do/did it for so long. It hurts but i can tell that there is a difference because he is now getting to the point where he has decided that i can make my own decisions and is going to give the blades back lets hope it helped well enough to not have the urge to use them whenever i do get them back.... I just wanted to let you guys know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel if i can find a way out you can too you need to discuss the your issues with someone you care about or a professional the issue is not just stress from a nagging mom or school that is stressful there are underlying issues you need to get to the bottom of before you can reach your healing process... HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY EVERYONE!

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The cutting situation Posted: 06-24-08 16:45pm


I understand where you are coming from where your parents are involved, i cut myself all the time over my parents, yes it felt good but now i have hidious scars on my legs. I still cant stop now and i regret doing it. When i want to cut i feel a urge to do it, like drug addicts want to take a line or needle. Its a need. You need to get out of the habit before you get to caught up in it. I dont cut myself to feel the pain, i control the pain which makes it even more desirable,i understand it feels good, releasive but it is dangerious. If i could go back to the night when i first cut myself and decided not to do it i would! When i look at my body i look and feel disgusting. I have not yet let ANYBODY see my body, i wouldnt want anyone to go through that. Go and tell your doctor, im sure if you are over 16 they will not inform them, unless you are at high risk of suicide or somthing. Just remeber that what you do to your body scars, and stays with you forever. Dollymixturegirl

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epidemic Posted: 07-10-08 22:34pm


apparently this used to be rare. But it's not. never feel like you're alone in this. I cut on and off for 8 years. Last time was 6 months ago, before that was two years. As far as I'm concerned it is an addiction and you need coping strategies when trying to break the habit. I personally found that writing really angry song lyrics on my arm in red pen helped. it sounds a bit lame, but it gives you something to focus on, and relating to the words always helped me feel a little less out of control. Cutting was always very cathartic for me, but i found focussing on the red pen, the evenness of the lettering, and the focus it takes to fill a whole arm with writing took my mind away for long enough for me to deal with the emotions in a slightly more rational way. Obviously, this may not work for you. But i realise now (it sounds silly, and i never thought I'd say it), i regret the scars. I love them, in a way, because they are me, but i don't like the attention they bring, and sometimes they remind me of the worst times. You don't break habits, you replace them. This is a coping mechanism, and there are better ways to cope. You just need to find your way. And maybe your parents can't help you, maybe it isn't worth telling them (i think parents get angry because they feel guilty and helpless, they're angry at themselves), but it's worth telling someone, friends, teachers, a doctor. you can't learn a new way to cope if you don't ask about it. Clearly, I had a relapse 6 months ago, and I've got a lot to learn still, but as i said, it's an addiction, and it's hard to break but it gets a bit easier every day. And it is so worth it.