I know this guy online since march, he
lives in another country, different from
mine. During april, he came to my country
on a business trip. We contact each other
daily through emails, phonecalls. He says
he like me alot and want to work on
things. I have feelings for him too. In
fact, I had fallen for him.
He has purchase 2 airtickets for me, on in
august, one in november to see him and
have a holiday.
Things start to turn sour since june. I
don't know whether its his work load, or
he like someone else, or its because i'm
starting to fall for him. I don't know is
it that he's scare of committements or
don't want to go any further than this.
I had purchase airticket to see him in oct
to celebrate his birthday before things
turn sour.
Now he's avoiding me like disease. I
can't confirm 100% but it really feels
like he's avoiding me. He doesn't reply
my sms or emails or calls anymore. He
doesn't call me or send me sms anymore.
The emails just get lesser and shorter in
content, all he says is his work. He used
to answer my calls but now he says he's
avoiding all his international work calls,
and cos when I ring him, its unlisted, so
he avoided it as well.
When I visited him in august, things
already start to feel strange, the
closness is not there anymore, and he
stays very far away from me physcially,
the distance between us can fit an
elephant. I asked him whether he still
likes me, and he said yes, or else, he
wouldn't have ask me to go over. He said
he could have asked me to stay in my
country.
Despite all his words, I felt that the
action just don't matched. From this
trip....Things just start to turn very
sour. There's no calls, no text. And 1
email per 1-2 days.
I felt that if I really mean the same to
him, he would have still email me or send
me text, and definately return my calls
once he hear his voicmail.
Its only another 1 month to my departure
date. I'm in a delima whether I should go
or not. There is no refund to the ticket,
its either I go or forsake $800 bucks.
If I don't go, I lose the money, and I
wont know what's happening between us.
If I go,i'm afraid that he wont pick me up
at the airport and i'm stranded there.
(remember I can't contact him at all, its
been like this for 1 week)
if he picks me up, i'm afriad that I will
just ruin his birthday.
If I ask him to choose, i'm afraid that he
will just ask me not to go. I'm really
scared.
I know from now till my departure date is
1month, and many things can happen during
this 1 month. Things can get better or
get worse. Maybe I had wrong him, maybe
its really because of stress during work
and lack of time. After all, different
people hand things differently.
But my instinct tells me i'm right. I'm
worried that if for these 30days, I can't
even contact him at all, is it extremely
stupid of me just to turn up at the
airport? Or at his house?
Please tell me what I should do. I'm
really confused, worried and heartbroken.
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