Hi,
i used to live in bakerfield california. That is where my first husband left me and my children, when he got new girlfriend pregnant.


I know the feeling about going from nice to completely stupd. I have no ideas about what to do. Like my new husband, I try to leave god wont let me leave him. He is a good provider for me and children, he just dont believe in me. He doubts everything I say and do. He dont understand me, but I understand him completely. And I choose to love him just how he is. He will never change his mind about the stuff, and I tell him all the time "you are taking it wrong, we are not being mean to you", but he dont believe me. Only god can change his mind. I wish he would hurry, I loose hope sometimes