Okay so heres my story. If you have any information that might help me or re-assuring words id be very greatful (im quite desperate!!!!) please! I feel very sad/scared/confused about everything. It started about 5 years ago. I was in grade 5 at this time. One day I was suppost to be going sailing and all of a suddon I felt very nautious, dizzy, overwhealmed and I was very scared (but I didnt ever have motion sickness before). Then it lasted almost all night. I thought that was the end of it but it kept re-accuring that whole year. I feel that fear played a big role in it. It eased off for the next three years but still came on very irregularly. Whenever this would happen I would be incredably scared of dieing and such. So I had many test done and they all came back normal. Then one day almost 2 years ago my appendix burst. I was in the hospital for a week then came home and things turned around for me. I convinced myself that that is why I had the nausia, dizzyness and everything (because of my infected appendix) and for a year it was great! Whenever I felt the slightest bit sick I convinced myself that it was impossible. And I felt well mostly all of the time. Until this winter and I kept getting re-accuring tonsilitus and had been seen by an e.N.T. Specialist. So I was booked to get them removed for about a week ago. But 28 days ago I was walking down a highway back from vollenteering at an animal shelter when I thougth to myself "wow I feel like im not really here, like this isnt reality" and it felt like I zoomed forward some how and it hit me like a wall of dizzyness, fear, unstableness, and numbness. I ran to the nearest store and got picked up and went home and slept for the rest of the day. The next day I felt very "out of it" and kind of dizzy and somewhat disoriented feeling. Then 2 days later I was still feelign a bit off but I had figured I just was getting over some weird bug. So I was watching a scary movie with my best friend (normally scary movies dont phase me) but this time was weird and different. My feet and hands went very sweaty and cold and so I turned off the movie and went downstairs to my mom and then it hit me again it felt as though my body wasnt my own kindof and felt like I "zoomed in" and felt very out of it and I panicked and my heart raced and everything I saw was like jumping back and fourth and I felt liek I was going to pass out/fall over and I was rambing to my mom so scared that I was dieing and felt like I coudlnt breathe so we rushed to the hospital and was in emerge for 5 or 6 hours and had e.K.G. And my heart rate was 110 over 80 when iwas in the acute attack and 64 over 30 when I fell asleep. So I had a 48 hour heart monitor the next day and it came back fine along with a 24 hour blood pressure monitor and mri and e.E.G. And e.K.G's and blood work. Everythings comming back normal. And im so scared. So about a week later I had an overwhealming attack of it again and went to the hospital in an ambulance. The fear I have is unbelieveable. So now I havent had another bad attack of it in abotu 2 weeks. But I can barley go outside and I cant see my friends and im so scared that im dieing. I feel very sad too. I feel liek im never getting better and im only 15 please I need help with this. I feel so confused about everything. So I constantly feel quite "out of it" and liek im not really here. Im very scared of this and I need help for it. I dont know what this is. If is e.N.T related or physological but I need answers. Please. If you have anything please dont hesitate to email me.
Thanks for your time and please im very scared.
Although it seems like yours is more severe than mine. Ive had similar feelings. One day I was outside at night and it was so sudden, I was hit with vague/withdrawn feelings. Its been 4 months now and I still feel the same. Everyone around me is beginning to notice that im not my normal self. Ive tried so hard to act normal around everyone but they're starting to see through me
notice how when you convinced yourself it was somthing else you were fine? I hope for you its a mental thing because it seems like it. Im sure after going to the emergency room a few times they have tested/examined your body inside and out and if there was somthing severely wrong with you they probably would have found it. As for your fear of not being able to go out.. Id jump on some stronger meds because you need to have a life. Hope everything works out
Thanks so much for such a quick reply. Just hearing that someone else has experienced this sort of thing is comforting. As you can tell im quite desperate with his situation. I'll keep posted with my progess.