[new At This] Not Sure If This Is Anxiety Based*please Read* Posted: 08-27-05 13:35pm
Okay so heres my story. If you have any
information that might help me or
re-assuring words id be very greatful (im
quite desperate!!!!) please! I feel very
sad/scared/confused about everything. It
started about 5 years ago. I was in grade
5 at this time. One day I was suppost to
be going sailing and all of a suddon I
felt very nautious, dizzy, overwhealmed
and I was very scared (but I didnt ever
have motion sickness before). Then it
lasted almost all night. I thought that
was the end of it but it kept re-accuring
that whole year. I feel that fear played
a big role in it. It eased off for the
next three years but still came on very
irregularly. Whenever this would happen I
would be incredably scared of dieing and
such. So I had many test done and they
all came back normal. Then one day almost
2 years ago my appendix burst. I was in
the hospital for a week then came home and
things turned around for me. I convinced
myself that that is why I had the nausia,
dizzyness and everything (because of my
infected appendix) and for a year it was
great! Whenever I felt the slightest bit
sick I convinced myself that it was
impossible. And I felt well mostly all of
the time. Until this winter and I kept
getting re-accuring tonsilitus and had
been seen by an e.N.T. Specialist. So I
was booked to get them removed for about a
week ago. But 28 days ago I was walking
down a highway back from vollenteering at
an animal shelter when I thougth to myself
"wow I feel like im not really here, like
this isnt reality" and it felt like I
zoomed forward some how and it hit me like
a wall of dizzyness, fear, unstableness,
and numbness. I ran to the nearest store
and got picked up and went home and slept
for the rest of the day. The next day I
felt very "out of it" and kind of dizzy
and somewhat disoriented feeling. Then 2
days later I was still feelign a bit off
but I had figured I just was getting over
some weird bug. So I was watching a scary
movie with my best friend (normally scary
movies dont phase me) but this time was
weird and different. My feet and hands
went very sweaty and cold and so I turned
off the movie and went downstairs to my
mom and then it hit me again it felt as
though my body wasnt my own kindof and
felt like I "zoomed in" and felt very out
of it and I panicked and my heart raced
and everything I saw was like jumping back
and fourth and I felt liek I was going to
pass out/fall over and I was rambing to my
mom so scared that I was dieing and felt
like I coudlnt breathe so we rushed to the
hospital and was in emerge for 5 or 6
hours and had e.K.G. And my heart rate
was 110 over 80 when iwas in the acute
attack and 64 over 30 when I fell asleep.
So I had a 48 hour heart monitor the next
day and it came back fine along with a 24
hour blood pressure monitor and mri and
e.E.G. And e.K.G's and blood work.
Everythings comming back normal. And im
so scared. So about a week later I had an
overwhealming attack of it again and went
to the hospital in an ambulance. The fear
I have is unbelieveable. So now I havent
had another bad attack of it in abotu 2
weeks. But I can barley go outside and I
cant see my friends and im so scared that
im dieing. I feel very sad too. I feel
liek im never getting better and im only
15 please I need help with this. I feel
so confused about everything. So I
constantly feel quite "out of it" and liek
im not really here. Im very scared of
this and I need help for it. I dont know
what this is. If is e.N.T related or
physological but I need answers. Please.
If you have anything please dont hesitate
to email me.
Thanks for your time and please im very
scared.
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asdfjkl
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jul 2005 Posts: 41 Location: British Columbia
Posted: 08-27-05 13:50pm
Although it seems like yours is more
severe than mine. Ive had similar
feelings. One day I was outside at night
and it was so sudden, I was hit with
vague/withdrawn feelings. Its been 4
months now and I still feel the same.
Everyone around me is beginning to notice
that im not my normal self. Ive tried so
hard to act normal around everyone but
they're starting to see through me
notice how when you convinced yourself it
was somthing else you were fine? I hope
for you its a mental thing because it
seems like it. Im sure after going to the
emergency room a few times they have
tested/examined your body inside and out
and if there was somthing severely wrong
with you they probably would have found
it. As for your fear of not being able to
go out.. Id jump on some stronger meds
because you need to have a life. Hope
everything works out
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Joined: 27 Aug 2005 Posts: 7 Location: N/A
Thanks For the Reply Posted: 08-27-05 15:36pm
Thanks so much for such a quick reply.
Just hearing that someone else has
experienced this sort of thing is
comforting. As you can tell im quite
desperate with his situation. I'll keep
posted with my progess.
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asdfjkl
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jul 2005 Posts: 41 Location: British Columbia
Posted: 08-27-05 15:41pm
No problem, I know what you're going
through and I know how hard it is. Just
remember no matter whats wrong with you
theres always somone else going through
the same thing. You will get through it