Man if having a baby isn't hard

, u now have mixed emotions

About everything in your life.I am really sad

all the time.I don't think about negative things though like so people do who kill their kid(s) due to postpartum depression.I really don't think that's an excuse.I would never do a thing like that.I just don't want to be around anyone. I isolate myself from my family. I feel like thats the only way I can escape from what i'm feeling, I feel free.I think I need to talk to my doctor about how I feel.If u guys have any advice please I need it.Thanks!
~bye~
~aj~