I too have felt many times since being diagnosed last march that i've been confused, trying to figure out why something like this can just happen out of the blue like it did with me, with no apparent cause for it, and then to learn that i'll be on medication for probably the rest of my life.
It's been difficult for me to deal with, as i'm sure it is for about everyone, even more so, I imagine, parents of children with epilepsy. I have 3 boys myself and I can't imagine having to deal with that, we've dealt with enough with our youngest, without epilepsy added onto that.
And yeah, I felt pretty weird and disoriented after my last seizure. It was especially devastating because when we went in to the doctor, that was when he told me it was epilepsy, and that he was putting me on medication (keppra, 1500 mg a day) and that I couldn't drive for 6 months. I think only people who are restricted from an activity they've done for years, that is really pretty necessary sometimes, can understand what that's like to be stripped of the ability to do that for months.
I hope all will get better for you. I know how hard this is to deal with, just in my own perspective. We are thinking about having a 4th child, and so i'm going to see my neurologist on wednesday to discuss it with him. We'll see what he says.
