New here,
just dx'ed with the bipolar type 2 and ptsd. They put me on lactimal. Anyone out there had that?
Been on for a little over a week and I already feel different, like I am living in some state of a dreamlike world and dont like it. Just really even feeling I guess, or slow feeling even though my mother says I am probably at a more nomral level. I am just scared that this is how I am always going to feel, or does it get better with time? I feel like blah. It doesnt help either that I am still getting over an ex. He wasnt very nice, but still is difficult. Feels like my life isnt mine or something, I am really having a hard time trying to explain this.
P-doc said that this was a good med for ptsd as well, due to the traumatic events in my life. I guess I didnt realize they were so traumatic. All I do know is at this point, I am ready to try anything that will make me a better, and functioning person. I am tired of losing jobs b/c of it, money probs, you name it. Is it normal for someone with this dx'ed to have felt nothing but sandess since the day they were born? My mother even knew, and here I thought I was so good at keeping things hidden from people. I lied for years to myself and close relationships about it, when iwas down I said I was sick so know one knew what was really going on. Then back up and so much energy and doing stuff and on and on, then abck down again, everyone teased me for being sick so much. Little did they know, I was scared they would commit me if they really knew, so I lived with it alone for years.
Anywhooo, anyone understand any of this?