Too Much Anger, What to Do... Posted: 08-18-05 21:11pm
I have a strange situation. I'm working 8
hour days with a boss who I believe is
constantly angry at me, and then going
home to mom who is also constantly angry
at me. I, myself, have very little
patience for anything stressful, so i'm
getting angry back. I have no idea how to
control this.
Me: I have symptoms related to generalized
anxiety and social anxiety. And I
definately have emotional issues. I tend
to "get weird" when I get too emotionally
close to someone new. I can't really
define it, just that I act out of fear and
anxiety, rather than naturally. This
makes forming new relationships very
difficult.
My boss: most everyone at work is very
affraid of her. Her husband is bipolar,
and I suspect she is. She used to love
me, but now she is constantly out to get
me. I don't think i'm being paranoid, she
reads through my emails, and
"interrogates" me on any tiny issue.
Other employees I work with don't get this
sort of abuse. I believe that at some
point she decided I was a threat to her.
I believe that this entire bad
relationship is due to that perception.
Everyone around her boosts her ego and is
affraid to call her out on anything.
These days, i'm soo sick of being seen as
a "bad employee", especially when it's all
emotional, and not based in fact... I'm
so tired of it, that I get very angry when
she comes to my desk to contradict,
question, and interrogate me. I have not
in recent months received a kind word from
her. My main question is, how do I keep
working, while being subjected to soo much
hate.
My mom: nearly the same problems as my
boss. My mom beleives she might be
bipolar, but maybe more manic. She is
taking 5 different antidepressants, and
switches them up regardless of her
psychiatrists perscription. My mom is in
the mental health profession and knows how
to get the meds she wants. She has very
serious issues with anger, and although I
know she loves me, I irritate her just
from walking in the front door. I've
tried everything I can, doing exactly what
she says, hiding in my room, buying her
starbucks, being friendly, no matter what
I do, she is pissed at me. I don't know
how to get away from it. I know for a
fact that she has major issues with money,
control, and low self esteem.
I've got my own mental and anxiety
problems, and i'm spending my worka and
home days with people who hate me. I have
tried to work my best, and do my best, but
it's not action based, it is purely
relationship based...
Any advice would be very helpful, i'm
becoming an angry person, which is not how
i've been most of my life. The last time
I was an angry person was when my mom
kicked me out of the house at 13 years
old... Since then, I was always a relaxed
person. Sometimes, i'm only relaxed in
action, but a ball of anxiety inside...
Please help me figure out what to do... I
need to get through life better than
this...
Thanks,
robert jason
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FreeSpirited
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Aug 2005 Posts: 8
Posted: 08-27-05 20:24pm
Hi robert,
be calm and reasonable. Remember that
your boss is not obliged to feel the same
way about things as you do.
Aim to solve the disagreement, rather than
win the argument. Be prepared to
compromise.
Approach your boss in a conciliatory way.
Ask them for their opinions, thoughts and
judgements on the issue. Really listen to
them.
Compliment them on any of their
suggestions that you think are workable.
Suggest your own ideas, rather than demand
them. Explain how your ideas will benefit
the organisation.
Perhaps your boss will be more interested
if you thoroughly research your ideas and
present them professionally, highlighting
possible benefits and drawbacks.
Start believing in you.....Start being
assertive..... Let people know you are
not giving them permission to treat you
bad, they have to treat you like the
best.....And only you can teach them this.
This is not done through anger, this is
not done through fear, this is done
through belief in yourself and asserting
yourself and sticking up for robert :d