I totally understand what you are going through. I'm recovering from anorexia and am experiencing the exact same emotions, feelings, bulging tummy, etc as you.

None of my clothes fit me either, they are so tight and uncomfortable so I have taken to wearing baggy combats.
Like you I am hoping that eventually my metabolism will return to normal and the weight will even out. Also, I have been told that a lot of the extra weight and bloating is most likely due to water retention, which will also go.
Also, like you i'm hoping to return to my ideal size of 8!!! It was what I was before this disease, but I know i'm bigger than that now.
However, I don't understand how i've become like this. Yes, I have been eating more and for a while I was experiencing weird cravings for things I don't normally eat, but this has thankfully gone. But when I compare what I eat to what other 'normal' people eat, it is far less, but i'm just continuing to put on weight.
Its starting to get me down and my family are becoming more and more annoyed with me complaining about how i'm feeling cause they don't think i've but on weight, or am anywhere near 'fat'!
I dunno what to do and can only sympathise with you and how you're feeling.
Lets just try to stick in there and if anyone else reading this has any advice, please please please let us know!!!
Xo

Hi, I am a recovering anorexic & yes, the belly bloat does go away. It's really water weight (that's why it looks like you gain like 5 lbs. In a day sometimes) because our bodies have been dehydrated as well as starved. My face swelled up alot at first too ~ 'chipmunk cheeks'. But that went away also.

So hang in there! As long as you exercise & eat well, but do not binge or starve, your metabolism will recover. Mine did ~ now I eat 3 healthy meals a day & my weight is stable, on the thin side of normal. Recovery is scary but if you keep on doing it, it gets easier with time.