Im 17 and never had a girlfriend. Never even been kissed. My whole life is kind of like one big, really sick joke.

The few girls that ever seemed interested in me end up being with my friends. Im not sure if its because im ugly or if I just have terrible luck, but its really taking a toll on me.

Recently I started talking to a girl who I work with. I liked her for a long time but never said anything at school because I didnt know her. I was with my friends at a park a while ago, and her and a couple of her friends were there. She noticed me and said something, so we all went over by them. A couple of us were sitting on a bench and the rest were standing nearby. I was sitting down, and she sat down next to me, said I smelled good or something, and said she was going to talk to me at work the next day. We talked a little bit there but they had to leave after about 10 minutes. I ran into her a bunch of places after that which was strange. One of those times she offered to give me her phone number and told me to call her later. I did and a few days later I met her somewhere and we ended up driving around and talking for a long time by ourselves. I knew it was stupid for me to get my hopes up for anything, but I couldnt really help it. Things seemed to be going so good and she acted like she liked me. Anyway after that we ended up meeting my friends somewhere where we were all drinking. She wasnt drunk or anything but she was still being really nice and was sitting next to me and stuff. I drove her home later and we talked some more, and it seemed like she liked me.

I called her the next day and she came and met me and my friends somewhere. Pretty much the same thing as the night before happened, except I didnt drive her home.

There were a couple times in between these days where she called me at lik 2 in the morning.

Then yesterday I called her and she was already at one of my friends' house. I went over there, and she seemed completely uninterested in me and was aggressively going after my friend. She acted like it was the most normal thing in the world and hardly even acknowledged my presence at all. The only time she talked to me was when she asked for gum. Im sure they could all tell that I was really in a bad mood, and I ended up leaving by myself when everyone else was there. I wouldnt tell any of them where I was going, even though they asked, and when I was driving around by myself she didnt bother calling me or anything. She never offered any explanation as to why she was acting like I wasnt there or why she was all over my friend right in front of me.

Things like this always happen whenever I make any serious effort to get to know a girl. I saw this whole thing coming a mile away but I still (like a person) let myself get my hopes up, just because she acted like she liked me. She didnt just talk to me or anything, she acted like she liked me. And then this doing it thing happens.

Given my history, and that I was sort of depressed in the first place, this has really hit me hard. I cant sleep and all ive done since ive gotten home is cry constantly and break various things.

I dont know what the hell im gonna do, because if shes hanging around my friends a lot now its just gonna be more painful. Its just so doing it disappointing because I got my hopes up so much. I feel so doing it helpless now and I cant get my mind off of it.

Im open to any sort of advice right now.

Thanks