Not sure how I would feel, god works in mysterious ways though, and if it wasnt meant to be then that is why it didnt happen for you. I am sad because you arent able to experience the joy of having a child now, but there is always later..Later when you are out on your own and happy. Learn from this, some people dont. Get your mind, body, and life under control. If you dont want a baby be mature about the situation. Good luck in your future, I hope to talk to you soon!!
Loads of love, laughter and joy!!
Stacie