Omg, hun, I know exactly how you feel. My boyfriend and I went through that same ordeal. It was like reading a story from my past. Im sorry you are going through this, it is so hard to feel that alone. All you want more than anything is to feel loved and understood, right now and he isnt giving you that. What you have to understand is he is going through alot now too, no he doesnt have pains and aches and the ever elusive labor to look forward to, but the idea of growing up when you are young is the scariest thing a guy can face (or not face which is happening here). My boyfriend and I went through some really hard times emotionally, like what you mentioned, there were times when I wouldnt see him for weeks- he would be partying and doing stupid things while I was panicked, stressed, and depressed. But, I never gave up on him and I never told him that he couldnt see his child (i dont think thats right) and finally he came around. He was just scared and guys react differently than we do. Im not saying to get your hopes up, im just saying dont close that door yet. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 6 years now, we have 3 beautiful children that we love very much with one more due any day, money has been hard... But you have to have faith in the person you once saw in him and understand that although he may be hiding from his feelings about all this right now, he is still the father of your baby and you owe it to your child (and yourself, I dont know what I would do without my guy around to help me) to really try to make things work. I know its hard, believe me. I hope whatever happens that you are happy and that wonderful opportunities come to you and your baby.
Roxxy
