Ok so i'm 24 yrs and have been taking kolonipin ever since my son passed away in 2004. I still even taking kolonipin feel like i'm outta breath hearts racing, basically all in all i feel like i'm going to die.
It's effecting my memory, i cant remember things, i often repeat myself and i'm worried/ scared of every lilttle thing for like NO REASON!!!
I can be sitting on the couch as well as can be then it hits me ( the panic attacks)
no matter what i do they wont stop. i dont feel "normal"
What i mean by that is i look at other people and they seem just fine and all of the sudden i start to feel shaky dizzy like im going to pass out my heart starts racing and i feel a choking sensasion like i'm not getting enough air, and mind you this is WITH taking kolonipin. i mean sure it takes the edge off because without it
it seems as though the only time i can breathe or have peace is when im sleeping and i would sometimes pray to god not to wake up the next morning so i dont have to go though another dibilitating day.
I often wonder if this will ever end?
I am alot of times scared to leave my own house and i avoid (keeping) friends or really keeping in touch with anyone, even my family. I want my life back....