I think you look like a perfect case for god. Just call out the name "jesus" and he will help you.
If you don't want to die, don"t. The mind, and possitive thinking does wonders for a sick body.
All I can say is don't
god bless you
ps. By the way I was 25 when I got cervical cancer, pid, urithitis and a few others. I was 33 when I started having heart pains, too young for hearts disease they said. But low and behold 22 episodes when I was 41 and acute miocardial infarction. Full blown heart attack. Clogged artery cad.
2001 39 years old severe spinal injury--no surgery just live with half paralized legs and severe pains, diagnosed chronic pain--disabled.
Not counting all the others diabeties, high blood pressure, hiatial hernia, fibrocystic breasts, severely high cholesterol, and I am not going to die. No way I refuse. I have children and grandchildren to help raise.