I just wrote a quick summary of the book, be pleased to read it and maybe it would give you ideas.

She was beautiful, intelligent, vivacious and charismatic, and she suffered from manic depression. At the age of 27, after five months of deep despair, zoë schwarz threw herself under an express train. Could her suicide have been avoided? Would her family have acted differently if they had known that one in five people with this illness kill themselves? Dorothy schwarz, zoë’s mother, reflects on the death of her daughter.

“no one is to blame for my death”. Zoë schwarz killed herself after a long battle with mental illness, leaving a note saying no one was to blame. In a moving letter to her dead daughter, her mother says there is no pain comparable to that caused by suicide and asks if she could have done anything to prevent it.

To family and friends and hicham (their addresses are on a list pinned up over my bed.)

no one is to blame for my death. I am killing myself because the circumstances of my life are unbearable.

I love you all; but I can’t live like this. I am in too much pain and I am just deteriorating.

I am sorry, please forgive me.

I used to work and see friends a lot; but now I can do neither because I can’t function nor communicate. I’ve been in hell for 4 months and I can’t bear the pain any more. Zoë.


That was the note, in perfectly legible writing, found by the police, lying on the front seat of her car, parked at marks tey station in arttags" />suffolk on august 22, 2000.